Painful Cry At Midnight

Just within one night, I learn a new world, something new about life perhaps.
I was sitting up straight on my chair, in my room, at my hostel, forcing my eyes to bulge wide, reviving my brain to not shut down and ensuring my hands are on the move in scribbling down all the cis-trans isomers, trying hard to appreciate the aroma of ORGANIC CHEMISTRY, no, it still tastes bitter even though I just walked out from the exam hall at 12 noon. The bitter part of it? I had not enough sleep and the mechanisms are dreadful to be remembered. But yes also, I didn't work hard enough pun lah. =P

There I was, all stressed up, as my mood swang from thinking of my Langkawi and China trip with family and friends to the fact that I forgot all my chemistry facts, aih cham ar!

All of the sudden, I heard of someone loud, real LOUD, I was unsure, separated by a door and the concrete walls of the corridor, what caught my ear was a seemingly weeping laughter? Weird indeed, and I just treated it as another of my hostel mates' midnight pillow talk, perhaps sharing of a funny tale that triggers them to laugh out loud. So, I ignored the outside world and continue memorizing while ling is sleeping, sorry ling, i bo off the glaring lights :(

But then, the laughter persisted, sounding more like a moan than laugh. I have to check. As I twist the door knob and push the door aside, I found that Siti and her roommate are also out from their rooms, awaken by the weird sound too. The truth scared me, shocked me to be exact. The kak next door to mine, her brother passed away and the weird laugh I thought earlier on is actually cries and shouts of agony! Foolish me. And this is my first encounter of someone who cried so loudly as this kak loses her beloved youngest brother due to a road accident. Her face was red, sulky, wet as tears are still rolling non-stop down her cheeks, yes, rolling like a sheet of never ending toilet roll being pulled at one end, not dripping as discrete droplets. She shouted, screamed in pain, anger and grief to go home right away, to take a bus immediately, not realizing how dangerous it was, for her, a girl to travel through states alone in a midnight bus. Imagine what if one of my family member leaves me forever, I can't imagine further, I dislike the feeling of separation, eternal separation some more, I don't want that, I can't bear that!

My life is a bliss as compared, what more do I greed for?
Once again, this reminds me to be thankful of whatever I have.
Thanks, for everything I have.