Surprisingly, there were more people who opted to watch Barbie within Queensbay Mall than to countdown for the upcoming year in the open field just opposite it. Barbie wins!
Barbie wasn't pretty to me, her boyfriend was instead good looking, amo fuiyoh!
Reminds me of the horoscopy prediction in Cleo about Virgoees in 2011, 'The possibility of finding that special someone of different culture and exotic background'.
Omg, can I have an amo instead of Muhamad? Just like xiaxue's, how sweet.
Fireworks displayed already? I thought it's just eleven now?
Peiyean just invited me to watch firecrackers together, I guess fairygodmother heard me =D
With my xxl crispy chicken in hand, my new year's resolution would be to be able to laugh away all sorrows! MUAHAHA-WAKAKA-hahahaHAHA!
Happy 2011!
I just threw mine. ;)
Friday, December 31, 2010
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
BoomboomPOW!
The moment we stepped out from Dewan Budaya, our palms showed contrasting sensations of both hot and cold.
Chilled by the conditioned air, warmed as the aftermath of clapping too enthusiastically. if only I divert such energy into my studies, IF ONLY ;)
Now, that was a performance worthed more than RM10, WOOH!
Andrew, that coursemate of mine who I used to meet more often in khaleel, roti bakar and AB coffee than in class, has great hands on piano!
Recalling what easy once said, 'U'll fall in love with him the moment he touches the piano!'
So true.
The way his hands got carried by music, his face danced with the tune and his eyes were neither looking at any chords nor the piano, they all stunned me!
Such gifted talent, Andrew, cool!
To our aman damai drummer: I love the way ur facial expression flows with the beat, ur whistling and the sandy sound from ur drumstick-like instrument. =D
As for the 11 years old drummer named Farez, you rocked kid! wooh!
USM jazzband, boomboomPOW!
Chilled by the conditioned air, warmed as the aftermath of clapping too enthusiastically. if only I divert such energy into my studies, IF ONLY ;)
Now, that was a performance worthed more than RM10, WOOH!
Andrew, that coursemate of mine who I used to meet more often in khaleel, roti bakar and AB coffee than in class, has great hands on piano!
Recalling what easy once said, 'U'll fall in love with him the moment he touches the piano!'
So true.
The way his hands got carried by music, his face danced with the tune and his eyes were neither looking at any chords nor the piano, they all stunned me!
Such gifted talent, Andrew, cool!
To our aman damai drummer: I love the way ur facial expression flows with the beat, ur whistling and the sandy sound from ur drumstick-like instrument. =D
As for the 11 years old drummer named Farez, you rocked kid! wooh!
USM jazzband, boomboomPOW!
Friday, December 10, 2010
A line of words.
An unusual holiday morning at which I woke slightly early, took bath before I brushed my teeth and headed to a nearby supermarket to shop for five coloured fruits.
Never before had I performed a religious chinese pray at home which involves fruits as we do not own any altar at home you see, and all the knowledge about buddhism which I possess are just a thin layer on the surface.
I felt awkward inside to only pick one of each type of fruit instead of the usual multiply of at least five.
To make things worse, the sales person who helped weighed each fruit I picked, laughed.
I smiled and explained, for praying kak.
That kak thought I was on a diet plan, one fruit per day, enough for the weekdays of a week. LOL.
Within the same grocery mart, I bumped into an uncle, a cheerful uncle.
We were from different directions, trying to reach the same cashier counter.
One glance at his hands, I could only see groceries, groceries, groceries, neither accompanied by a helper nor aided with a basket or trolley.
Signalling the uncle to pay first, this uncle smiled, a warm smile and in a familiar cantonese dialect, he shooked his head and said, '做什麽事都唔好碑人行头，本来是你的就坚持，要对自己要信心!’
I smiled back, paid before him and thanked him.
It's a day worth remembering, that uncle and his words. =D
One sunny day, checked!
Can't pull myself out of 下一站，幸福, the first one which shakes my stand on taiwanese drama series, the plot is well planned, the main characters stand out well, acting skills are in my view great! Worth watching (:
Never before had I performed a religious chinese pray at home which involves fruits as we do not own any altar at home you see, and all the knowledge about buddhism which I possess are just a thin layer on the surface.
I felt awkward inside to only pick one of each type of fruit instead of the usual multiply of at least five.
To make things worse, the sales person who helped weighed each fruit I picked, laughed.
I smiled and explained, for praying kak.
That kak thought I was on a diet plan, one fruit per day, enough for the weekdays of a week. LOL.
Within the same grocery mart, I bumped into an uncle, a cheerful uncle.
We were from different directions, trying to reach the same cashier counter.
One glance at his hands, I could only see groceries, groceries, groceries, neither accompanied by a helper nor aided with a basket or trolley.
Signalling the uncle to pay first, this uncle smiled, a warm smile and in a familiar cantonese dialect, he shooked his head and said, '做什麽事都唔好碑人行头，本来是你的就坚持，要对自己要信心!’
I smiled back, paid before him and thanked him.
It's a day worth remembering, that uncle and his words. =D
One sunny day, checked!
Can't pull myself out of 下一站，幸福, the first one which shakes my stand on taiwanese drama series, the plot is well planned, the main characters stand out well, acting skills are in my view great! Worth watching (:
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Disappearing
Back at home, I'm trying to reconnect with every big and small details I have been missing since my seemingly dreadful exam weeks kick off.
I was back then thinking, exam is a killer!
Death, seems to be just another lifeless word u see on the newspaper, as long as it deals with people who has zero connection with u.
What if someday, death clinge on someone u know, someone u have feelings on?
Nah, let's be optimistic, don't burden ur minds with sorrows that don't exist yet, u might think.
My bestie's dad passed away, someone close is diagnosed with liver cancer, 4th stage.
How can that be without any signs or symptoms?
The clock is ticking, taking things for granted is what I always do.
Always appreciate, this is needed.
I was back then thinking, exam is a killer!
Death, seems to be just another lifeless word u see on the newspaper, as long as it deals with people who has zero connection with u.
What if someday, death clinge on someone u know, someone u have feelings on?
Nah, let's be optimistic, don't burden ur minds with sorrows that don't exist yet, u might think.
My bestie's dad passed away, someone close is diagnosed with liver cancer, 4th stage.
How can that be without any signs or symptoms?
The clock is ticking, taking things for granted is what I always do.
Always appreciate, this is needed.
Thursday, November 25, 2010
Sushi, Sashimi, Slurrp Slurrp Yummy!
Exam is over, OVER!
Tao became our celebration spot, my first taste of this buffet style, japanese cuisine.
I always loved this kind of pay once but eat-all-u-might meal!
We started off with the top ten dishes:
1. Abalone slices sprinkled with plastic like fuzhu skin.
2. Cheese covered scallop with the size of a 50 cents coin but much thicker. nicenicenice! (:
3. Gigantic oyster hidden like a treasure below a sticky film of cheesy chilly sauce.
4. Tempura, a mixture of prawns, brinjal and orangy sweet potato, served with special dark brown sauce.
5. Juicy mutton stick with a thick, finger-licking-good sauce.
6. Thin anchovy looking thin, slim fish which is meant to be eaten together with its bones. We spotted eggs within its stomach, not wanting to explore further, we just swallowed everything, excluding the head and tail =P
7. Cecilia's favourite smoked beef fried with spring onion.
8. Two cupfuls of slippery tofu which slid through our throats =P stuffed with crab meat and topped with slimmy shark's fin soup's gravy.
9. Cheesy crabmeat dumplings, tasted like mayonnaise.
10. Raw sashimi of squit and salmon. Too raw for us both, dislike, sorry expensive salmon.
Then, hands were raised for side dishes, yay yay yay!
We tasted Japanese shark's fin soup, moderate rating as it beared a chicken porridge taste.
Fruits, lots lots of fruits to shave our feelings of full.
And so we continued our eating marathon with smoked eel, more sushi.
We also had two cup each of cookie cream flavoured ice-cream!!
Our mission to eat from 6pm till 9pm was completed! wakaka =D
Tao became our celebration spot, my first taste of this buffet style, japanese cuisine.
I always loved this kind of pay once but eat-all-u-might meal!
We started off with the top ten dishes:
1. Abalone slices sprinkled with plastic like fuzhu skin.
2. Cheese covered scallop with the size of a 50 cents coin but much thicker. nicenicenice! (:
3. Gigantic oyster hidden like a treasure below a sticky film of cheesy chilly sauce.
4. Tempura, a mixture of prawns, brinjal and orangy sweet potato, served with special dark brown sauce.
5. Juicy mutton stick with a thick, finger-licking-good sauce.
6. Thin anchovy looking thin, slim fish which is meant to be eaten together with its bones. We spotted eggs within its stomach, not wanting to explore further, we just swallowed everything, excluding the head and tail =P
7. Cecilia's favourite smoked beef fried with spring onion.
8. Two cupfuls of slippery tofu which slid through our throats =P stuffed with crab meat and topped with slimmy shark's fin soup's gravy.
9. Cheesy crabmeat dumplings, tasted like mayonnaise.
10. Raw sashimi of squit and salmon. Too raw for us both, dislike, sorry expensive salmon.
Then, hands were raised for side dishes, yay yay yay!
We tasted Japanese shark's fin soup, moderate rating as it beared a chicken porridge taste.
Fruits, lots lots of fruits to shave our feelings of full.
And so we continued our eating marathon with smoked eel, more sushi.
We also had two cup each of cookie cream flavoured ice-cream!!
Our mission to eat from 6pm till 9pm was completed! wakaka =D
Malacca, a stylish taste of old.
I like this feeling of family even though the people involved aren't biologically connected to me as so.
And so I had my first trip to explore the historical site of Malacca, along with my 9 other coursemates, xiaopengyou (easy), sinyin, jiahui, weiting, yeekwan, cheeyan, xiaoguang, desmond and jasper.
It's one trip I enjoy, very relaxing, simple and filled with loud laughs, eyes squeezing happiness.
We searched for baba food which turns out to be nyonya food. (baba is nyonya's husband, we all conclude that lady cooks better =D)
Ole Sayang we went, reachable by walking distance from mahkota parade, keep walking straight until the end and u'll find this corner lot restaurant, painted in green.
We ordered asam pedas fish, sambal prawns, dry curry chicken, fried kangkung and salted vege soup.
Rice was served on banana leaf, in an inverted triangular, rottan, cap-like container.
The taste? Spicy swirled with a touch of sourness that woke our already hungry stomach, making us went, 'nice leh, munch munch munch, really very nice eh! Ahh, the soup, slurrrp, NICE!! I take more har.' Hahaha!
The waitress must be thinking, 'this bunch of kids must had been starved for ages liao!' =D
I won't forget the end part where everyone was too full to stuff in the remaining piece of fish.
We took 15 minutes to persuade, ok, actually is force the fish down the throats of our gentlemen.
Saviour every single bite! We aren't wasteful! Yeah!
Next, we headed to the very renown, Capitol Satay Celup.
80 cents per stick, yupyup, any stick, ranging from large prawns, shrimps, chicken meat, fishcakes, bean curd, fishballs, entangled kangkung balls, bird's egg, fried pork skin, sausages, stuffed taufu and more.
These uncooked food were lined neatly on the shelf of an open aired freezer, like those found in supermarket, with trays provided.
We waited for the attendent to pour in the thick, peanut filled mixture of satay sauce, boiled it for a few minutes and we started dipping our sticks of choice in and out.
Messy but steaming fun! =D
Not say super yummy, but it was something different, and the atmosphere of steamboating with the whole gang, worthed it I would say! (:
We wouldn't miss out malacca's chicken rice balls, served as spheres of rice.
Ah ni was true, the original shop was one that needed neither sophisticated renovations nor was it air-conditioned, instead, it just laid humbly, with the owner guarding the steel fence, limiting the number of guests based on the availability of seats and food left.
Good quality control indeed haha.
We also went river cruising, up Taming Sari, A Famosa, The Ship (static one), Muziums (lots of them), Jonker Street, biscuit hunting, souvenir shopping and cendol tasting (all kinds of flavour we tasted, me like durian! =D)
All in all, pepsi fits my feeling best, I'm 'Asking For More'.
And so I had my first trip to explore the historical site of Malacca, along with my 9 other coursemates, xiaopengyou (easy), sinyin, jiahui, weiting, yeekwan, cheeyan, xiaoguang, desmond and jasper.
It's one trip I enjoy, very relaxing, simple and filled with loud laughs, eyes squeezing happiness.
We searched for baba food which turns out to be nyonya food. (baba is nyonya's husband, we all conclude that lady cooks better =D)
Ole Sayang we went, reachable by walking distance from mahkota parade, keep walking straight until the end and u'll find this corner lot restaurant, painted in green.
We ordered asam pedas fish, sambal prawns, dry curry chicken, fried kangkung and salted vege soup.
Rice was served on banana leaf, in an inverted triangular, rottan, cap-like container.
The taste? Spicy swirled with a touch of sourness that woke our already hungry stomach, making us went, 'nice leh, munch munch munch, really very nice eh! Ahh, the soup, slurrrp, NICE!! I take more har.' Hahaha!
The waitress must be thinking, 'this bunch of kids must had been starved for ages liao!' =D
I won't forget the end part where everyone was too full to stuff in the remaining piece of fish.
We took 15 minutes to persuade, ok, actually is force the fish down the throats of our gentlemen.
Saviour every single bite! We aren't wasteful! Yeah!
Next, we headed to the very renown, Capitol Satay Celup.
80 cents per stick, yupyup, any stick, ranging from large prawns, shrimps, chicken meat, fishcakes, bean curd, fishballs, entangled kangkung balls, bird's egg, fried pork skin, sausages, stuffed taufu and more.
These uncooked food were lined neatly on the shelf of an open aired freezer, like those found in supermarket, with trays provided.
We waited for the attendent to pour in the thick, peanut filled mixture of satay sauce, boiled it for a few minutes and we started dipping our sticks of choice in and out.
Messy but steaming fun! =D
Not say super yummy, but it was something different, and the atmosphere of steamboating with the whole gang, worthed it I would say! (:
We wouldn't miss out malacca's chicken rice balls, served as spheres of rice.
Ah ni was true, the original shop was one that needed neither sophisticated renovations nor was it air-conditioned, instead, it just laid humbly, with the owner guarding the steel fence, limiting the number of guests based on the availability of seats and food left.
Good quality control indeed haha.
We also went river cruising, up Taming Sari, A Famosa, The Ship (static one), Muziums (lots of them), Jonker Street, biscuit hunting, souvenir shopping and cendol tasting (all kinds of flavour we tasted, me like durian! =D)
All in all, pepsi fits my feeling best, I'm 'Asking For More'.
Thursday, October 28, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
A clock with jumbled up numbers.
Today, I was planning to start my revision de, but I failed again.
I knew I was running out of time but things just popped up randomly, the way the sky in Penang spills rain drops eventhough it was as bright as a fluorescent light just a minute ago.
Thanks Pei Yean for being an unselfish friend by tagging me along to the library to borrow this 700++ pages thick dictionary. Haha!
Okay, I know it isn't funny, it's our reference book. walao.
I see huge changes from this coursemate of mine.
You became more optimistic, which is nice to get to see that.
This semester, you even reminded me to study everytime you see me drifting away from my books.
Honestly, there are plenty other things, you may or may not know, that I weighed heavier than studies.
Which I sometimes halted, struggled to really think and question myself, is it worth it?
The happy part is that I followed my heart, the guilty part is that I failed all promises made to myself. Irony, not?
Anyway, no big deal.
Hurdles like this is part and parcel of life.
Just I hope I'll be able to reminisce from the near future and smile, unregrettably. (^-^)
Dinner tonight was a late one, with Ling as promised.
I owed you this one to one dinner long ago ling.
Don't get me wrong, it's a silent one made to my own.
I'm still crunching fried, dehydrated, zig-zags of Mamee Monster between my teeth.
While typing, I'm almost done. =D
I'm not a goddy person, yet I harbour this feeling of being watched upon.
Really am thankful for having great companions even when I'm far from home.
Cecilia's soaked, dried longevity noodles, marinated with thick black Brovil sauce, with an EGG, hard boiled egg, each of us one, brightened my late night.
I shall dived into dreamland with a smile later tonight. :DD
I knew I was running out of time but things just popped up randomly, the way the sky in Penang spills rain drops eventhough it was as bright as a fluorescent light just a minute ago.
Thanks Pei Yean for being an unselfish friend by tagging me along to the library to borrow this 700++ pages thick dictionary. Haha!
Okay, I know it isn't funny, it's our reference book. walao.
I see huge changes from this coursemate of mine.
You became more optimistic, which is nice to get to see that.
This semester, you even reminded me to study everytime you see me drifting away from my books.
Honestly, there are plenty other things, you may or may not know, that I weighed heavier than studies.
Which I sometimes halted, struggled to really think and question myself, is it worth it?
The happy part is that I followed my heart, the guilty part is that I failed all promises made to myself. Irony, not?
Anyway, no big deal.
Hurdles like this is part and parcel of life.
Just I hope I'll be able to reminisce from the near future and smile, unregrettably. (^-^)
Dinner tonight was a late one, with Ling as promised.
I owed you this one to one dinner long ago ling.
Don't get me wrong, it's a silent one made to my own.
I'm still crunching fried, dehydrated, zig-zags of Mamee Monster between my teeth.
While typing, I'm almost done. =D
I'm not a goddy person, yet I harbour this feeling of being watched upon.
Really am thankful for having great companions even when I'm far from home.
Cecilia's soaked, dried longevity noodles, marinated with thick black Brovil sauce, with an EGG, hard boiled egg, each of us one, brightened my late night.
I shall dived into dreamland with a smile later tonight. :DD
Saturday, October 23, 2010
My Forever Eating Friend
The negative similarities we shared:
1. Like to overthink things.
2. Tendency to be emotional exists and peaks at people who are closest to us. (blame it all on genes =D)
3. Spend money like water.
Before I start,
I wanna let you know so that you can prepare yourself mentally,
My control on my tantrums is inversely proportional to how close and important you were to me.
I tend to throw long faces, talk less and once I speak, awful, thorny words is vomitted, which may hurt your fragile heart.
I promise I'll TRY to change...
Yes, to this princess who called herself princess emo even before we got to know each other:
YOU SIAO!!
Asked me to go read your latest blog post.
I was anticipating of another siao love story (my imagination while smiling), BUT it's a post to apologize instead.
Thus, I am hereby to clarify.
You became a big spender this semester (yes)
You like to follow ur heart and do things emotionally (most of the times BUT ONLY when it comes to PLEASURE, at times when you wanna destress, through eating in particular)
You tend to not reply/ remained silent/ ignorant when your desires were not fulfiled (to be honest, got, but not to say often)
And while u remained silent, (which obviously you know will somehow terrify your 对象), the next thing happened, was that he or she gave way to you.
And obviously, you started realising all these yourself, after serious thinking about it, yesterday?
Till the extend that you even blogged about it.
Just wanna let you know,
It wasn't as EVIL as how sickly guilty you felt.
There aren't many people who rethink, reanalyze their actions, especially selfish actions, inconsiderate actions, emotional actions.
And I think people who think over their acts, are people who are kind after all.
Plus, I sensed how bad you felt because for tough (or can say stubborn =P mai hit me, not you only, many including ME) people like you to apologise, I knew you meant it.
Conclusion:
STOP FEELING BAD LIAO! Not that you killed someone, for us girls to be emotional is normal nia (I'm finding excuses for myself too =P), part of the maturation process, just let us mature and grow together!
Please pledge with me (raise ur three fingers on ur right if ur room mate is not around) =D:
I shall be a better person! ^-^
1. Like to overthink things.
2. Tendency to be emotional exists and peaks at people who are closest to us. (blame it all on genes =D)
3. Spend money like water.
Before I start,
I wanna let you know so that you can prepare yourself mentally,
My control on my tantrums is inversely proportional to how close and important you were to me.
I tend to throw long faces, talk less and once I speak, awful, thorny words is vomitted, which may hurt your fragile heart.
I promise I'll TRY to change...
Yes, to this princess who called herself princess emo even before we got to know each other:
YOU SIAO!!
Asked me to go read your latest blog post.
I was anticipating of another siao love story (my imagination while smiling), BUT it's a post to apologize instead.
Thus, I am hereby to clarify.
You became a big spender this semester (yes)
You like to follow ur heart and do things emotionally (most of the times BUT ONLY when it comes to PLEASURE, at times when you wanna destress, through eating in particular)
You tend to not reply/ remained silent/ ignorant when your desires were not fulfiled (to be honest, got, but not to say often)
And while u remained silent, (which obviously you know will somehow terrify your 对象), the next thing happened, was that he or she gave way to you.
And obviously, you started realising all these yourself, after serious thinking about it, yesterday?
Till the extend that you even blogged about it.
Just wanna let you know,
It wasn't as EVIL as how sickly guilty you felt.
There aren't many people who rethink, reanalyze their actions, especially selfish actions, inconsiderate actions, emotional actions.
And I think people who think over their acts, are people who are kind after all.
Plus, I sensed how bad you felt because for tough (or can say stubborn =P mai hit me, not you only, many including ME) people like you to apologise, I knew you meant it.
Conclusion:
STOP FEELING BAD LIAO! Not that you killed someone, for us girls to be emotional is normal nia (I'm finding excuses for myself too =P), part of the maturation process, just let us mature and grow together!
Please pledge with me (raise ur three fingers on ur right if ur room mate is not around) =D:
I shall be a better person! ^-^
Friday, October 22, 2010
Like a dead log
Once I sleep, I can never be waken before the sun rises.
I planned to take ONLY a half an hour nap yesterday night at 10pm.
And so I told my room mate Cecilia.
She caringly turned off the lights for me, eventhough she was not heading to bed yet and was still watching drama over her lappie.
After that, I wondered comfortably into dreamland and eventually I got stuck there o.O
I neither remember waking up in between nor hear my loud alarm screams.
Weird enough, I opened my eyes suddenly at 4am.
When I checked the time on my mobile phone, I bounced off bed almost immediately!
And I studied, my notes being litted by my table lamp.
But my diligence only lasted for an hour haha.
It was funny when I checked through my midnight messages.
From my coursemate, Cheeyan: Meiting jie, don't study so much, wakaka =P See la, my coursemate are like this de, jahat betul. I replied by asking him not to always ask people don't study, must study de ma, yor!
From Tian: Wake me up at 12. Wakaka! This midnight friend of mine (this is the reason behind her nickname, owl) also slept! Made me felt less guilty.
From Easy: Hey dapengyou, can wake up le. With a smiley. Haha xiaopengyou, u knew me best, u still wake me eventhough I told u that I set my alarms before I nap. U knew I might have a chance to not wake like before.
From Cecilia: (This is the most funny! XD) WAKE UP AND STUDY!! wakaka! Can u sense how desperate the situation was for my own room mate to message me despite the fact that she was in the same room with me all the time. I guessed that she dared not wake me up face to face, she's too kind.
I laughed when I read through my messages.
This morning, Cecilia woke to rush for the toilet.
Before returning to bed, she told me the hilarious happenings yesterday night.
'Mei Ting! I'm so worried about you! Yesterday u told me u'll sleep for only half an hour but after one hour u also haven't wake. Then I go to your bedside to wake u, u opened ur eyes a while and told me not to worry, u'll arrange ur own time to wake. Once finished ur sentence, u close ur eyes and sleep again. So, I went to on the lights, hoping that the lights are glaring enough to wake u up, cos maybe darkness encourage u to sleep soundly. BUT U STILL DID NOT WAKE! Haiyo, then u got exam somemore...U better study today liao lo!'
Hahahaha! I didn't even remember a thing about that. I was sleep talking again! walao.
I really slept like a dead log.
p/s: I even went to keep my clothes at 4am. =D
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
Here Comes The Scary Presentation!
Pa, I LOVE U!Yay! We nailed it!
It was scary, the few seconds when Dr Aisyah stared with her HUGE eyes at my dark circles secluded eyes, without blinking.
I was thinking, 'o.O walao, why stare at me? Is this a hint for me to speak?'
And I quickly turned my head to seek shelter from my group mates behind. That killing stare was enough for me to remember my entire life!
I figured that Dr Aisyah liked our group leader much.
Maybe because of all the masculine muscles, cute dimples, attention grabbing words?
And yeah, I missed telling you, Dr Aisyah LOVED male presentors! wakaka! =DDDD
'Which state are you from?' The indian guy, sent from one of those fitness center in Gurney who got lost in our school in search for our general office, asked me.
I nearly fainted LOL upon unveiling the motive behind his inquiry, which was to confirm his guess that I'm a bumi from Sarawak or Sabah. -.-lll
I'm neither offended nor sad, as this was not my first encounter on the issue of my appearance.
'I thought you were a Malay!' Even my super senior who coincidently is a truly bumi claims that I do not looked chinese. T.T
But then, I'm glad that I got over this issue and smiled, sometimes laughed to myself whenever people mistaken me as non-chinese.
Wohoo! I''m as light as a floating cloud, with a smile if it has a face. =D
Sunday, October 17, 2010
Up and Down
I walked again.
I started off with a thought of guilt for all plans I made today which require plenty of walking. I'm doing this prior to my physical pharmacy test again.
It was always funny whenever I recall how my current room mate, Cecilia describes me to her friend, as an atypical pharmacy student.
Unusual is good but not in this case as it slants towards the weird side o.O
'I didn't see her study much de leh, always walks here and there, like very relaxing de wo.'
Haha! Only me.
And that is why my quiz results are unbearable.Sometimes living up to the expectectations of others is tiring.
You tend to harbour in mind, 'Oh, I should do this.', 'Yeah, I shouldn't be doing this.', 'Look at others, and look at me!'
Yet, I was wrong.
I enjoyed today.
I went lunching with PeiYean at bali-bali which we ended up hunting for some groceries in tesco.
I then continued studying with ling and tian in palapapapa! Mcdonalds.
We talked while studying.
Or more precisely, we studied while talking. As usual. Haha!
The focus seemed to shift towards talking in the end which we didn't do so for a long time.
I'm looking forward to meeting up with all four of us, ling, tian and ni the next time.
For now, I shall continue my last minute studying for tomorrow's test.
I'm such a dead meat!
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Spontaneous Walk
Woohoo~leopard prints around our frames! Everything happened unplanned today.
We planned for lunching at Roti Bakar but we went KFC instead.
We planned to try out the bus from RST but we went to Sungai Dua instead.
We planned to stop at Gurney before heading to tian jiuma's house but we overshot and ended up somewhere near Flamingo Hotel.
We planned to cancel our plan but jiuma realise it for us by offering to send us to Gurney instead.
I guess everything happened for a cause.
That's why we get to bump into Linda Chung, the demure actress who starred in current heatest hongkong drama series.
And also, we found France Taipei doing promo for free photo shooting, you only pay for the photos.
And for early birds who signed up for the album package, tadaa! You secured yourself a seat to join the exclusive sing signing event with Ron! 吴卓曦!
Fuiyoh! And owlowl tian happened to be among these birds. =PPPP
Actually it's not about Ron, it's more about the quality of shoots they provide at a promotion price resulted in tian signing up.
Oh, and we also went to the Clinic Cafe for dinner!
Themed cafes like this, people usually pay for the atmosphere and not the food.
I figured that the owner spent a bomb on renovations as we even had wheeled chairs as seats! Fascinating not?
The food was somewhat big in portion and acceptably good, not to say super tasty but at least you won't be criticising them the moment you exit the cafe.
It was relaxing to shop-walk in Gurney Plaza at weekends like this.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Sinks.
I'm in dilemma of whether to continue with major alterations or to start anew.
I know sir's comments are meant for improvement but can't help being disappointed.
Still standing at far distance away from being a creative writer, not even an amateur I supposed.
Searching for inspirations.
A day to be remembered.
English has always been one subject which I rank it high, I really hope to do well in this paper de.
Continue struggling, you can do it!
this I'm saying to myself.
I shall never forget that amo who talked to me. Can't stop smiling when I recall, my first in this 21 years.
A typical Asian chinese, I shake my head, words can't come out from my mouth, he still thank me and I thank him back. LOL. for asking which makes me happy a little? PERASAN! =D
Today is totally siao, english test all of a sudden and POOF!
I burned my test marks into flames.
Mood is not switched back, cannot squeeze in the fact that we had a test.
Blank.
*************************************************************************************************
After sleeping, I'm revived.
Switched to study mood.
Ciao.
I know sir's comments are meant for improvement but can't help being disappointed.
Still standing at far distance away from being a creative writer, not even an amateur I supposed.
Searching for inspirations.
A day to be remembered.
English has always been one subject which I rank it high, I really hope to do well in this paper de.
Continue struggling, you can do it!
this I'm saying to myself.
I shall never forget that amo who talked to me. Can't stop smiling when I recall, my first in this 21 years.
A typical Asian chinese, I shake my head, words can't come out from my mouth, he still thank me and I thank him back. LOL. for asking which makes me happy a little? PERASAN! =D
Today is totally siao, english test all of a sudden and POOF!
I burned my test marks into flames.
Mood is not switched back, cannot squeeze in the fact that we had a test.
Blank.
*************************************************************************************************
After sleeping, I'm revived.
Switched to study mood.
Ciao.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Inner growth. GROW!
这就是长大
by Banghui Tong on Friday, September 17, 2010 at 10:12am
Thanks to xiaoxiaotian for sharing. (^-^) Note the name xiaoxiaotian. Like it! =D
1.学会把亲情放在第一位,把友情放在第二位,把爱情放在够不到的位置
2.学会不和父母顶嘴,学会为了维护友谊让步
3.学会不想着依赖别人,做好自己,让别人依赖你
4.学会认清自己,不是很好,也不算坏,不把头扬的很高,也不拿眼睛盯别人的脚
5.学会把喜欢的人放在心底,默默的喜欢,有种情不需要张扬
6.学会不为了自己喜欢的人和别人争论,或许你并不了解他
7.学会口是心非,看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起,请祝福
8.学会独自一个人承受一些事,一个人守着一些秘密
9.学会适当减肥,不要过度,为了某些人,坚持
10.学会去关心家人,朋友,不要以为他们不会离开我们,就不在意
11.学会交际,和所有的人搞好关系,踏入社会,面对的人会更多
12.学会掩饰忧伤,对别人笑,要哭,躲被窝里
13.学会成熟处事,即使是装出来的
14.学会在特殊的节日,给别人一个小小的惊喜,感动一个人很简单,让她（他）知道你心中有她（他）的位置
15.学会不相信童话故事,永远记得仙杜瑞拉有的水晶鞋是你没有的
16.学会必要的欺骗,不要说你诚实,埋没了善良更可恶
17.学会为自己的人生做好打算,自己争取来的更值得珍惜
18.学会不计较,忘记一些不愉快,也许你会更快乐
19.学会无条件付出,想想父母,你会释然
20.学会写日记,我们的人生并不是很长,把它记下足可以让你重拾记忆
好好过日子,终会长大,学会不让爱我们的人对我们失望
拿得起,放得下,该放手的时候,不要拖泥带水,告诉自己,学会自爱,也会活得很好… …
This is a meaningful one.
There are so many doubts, questions, situations that I recapture, from time to time, more frequently when I'm alone, the few minutes prior to sleep or even when sitting at the back sit in a car along the many journeys, both short and long ones.
Sometimes, I over think things, made assumptions which are seemingly tragic.
And start to feel sad about it.
Then after a short while, something else happened.
And am happy again!
Being happy, isn't easy.
Having a mind which doesn't cease from the process of maturation is as important.
This note is meaningful, shows that I still need some growing.
Not physically though, imagine Jack and The Beanstalk. =D
So, are u growing too?
Shall be back to recheck.
Anyone, growth factors at sale?
by Banghui Tong on Friday, September 17, 2010 at 10:12am
Thanks to xiaoxiaotian for sharing. (^-^) Note the name xiaoxiaotian. Like it! =D
1.学会把亲情放在第一位,把友情放在第二位,把爱情放在够不到的位置
2.学会不和父母顶嘴,学会为了维护友谊让步
3.学会不想着依赖别人,做好自己,让别人依赖你
4.学会认清自己,不是很好,也不算坏,不把头扬的很高,也不拿眼睛盯别人的脚
5.学会把喜欢的人放在心底,默默的喜欢,有种情不需要张扬
6.学会不为了自己喜欢的人和别人争论,或许你并不了解他
7.学会口是心非,看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起,请祝福
8.学会独自一个人承受一些事,一个人守着一些秘密
9.学会适当减肥,不要过度,为了某些人,坚持
10.学会去关心家人,朋友,不要以为他们不会离开我们,就不在意
11.学会交际,和所有的人搞好关系,踏入社会,面对的人会更多
12.学会掩饰忧伤,对别人笑,要哭,躲被窝里
13.学会成熟处事,即使是装出来的
14.学会在特殊的节日,给别人一个小小的惊喜,感动一个人很简单,让她（他）知道你心中有她（他）的位置
15.学会不相信童话故事,永远记得仙杜瑞拉有的水晶鞋是你没有的
16.学会必要的欺骗,不要说你诚实,埋没了善良更可恶
17.学会为自己的人生做好打算,自己争取来的更值得珍惜
18.学会不计较,忘记一些不愉快,也许你会更快乐
19.学会无条件付出,想想父母,你会释然
20.学会写日记,我们的人生并不是很长,把它记下足可以让你重拾记忆
好好过日子,终会长大,学会不让爱我们的人对我们失望
拿得起,放得下,该放手的时候,不要拖泥带水,告诉自己,学会自爱,也会活得很好… …
This is a meaningful one.
There are so many doubts, questions, situations that I recapture, from time to time, more frequently when I'm alone, the few minutes prior to sleep or even when sitting at the back sit in a car along the many journeys, both short and long ones.
Sometimes, I over think things, made assumptions which are seemingly tragic.
And start to feel sad about it.
Then after a short while, something else happened.
And am happy again!
Being happy, isn't easy.
Having a mind which doesn't cease from the process of maturation is as important.
This note is meaningful, shows that I still need some growing.
Not physically though, imagine Jack and The Beanstalk. =D
So, are u growing too?
Shall be back to recheck.
Anyone, growth factors at sale?
Wednesday, September 15, 2010
Reminds me of the beginning
When the end is near, one tends to think of theSo true.
beginning.
But this time, it is not about separation, graduation or migration.
The only similarity it shares is that it deals with leave.
The truth is, HOLIDAYS.IS.ENDING!!
Ground rumbles, trees up-rooted, sky turns black, tornado swirls aggresively and sucks me back to USM.
Pathetic image.
Actually uni is not that awful, is just that home is too cosy, and the people within.
As holiday is ending, then one starts to look at the calender, check the exam dates, double check the letter long to-do-list to cross out what have been completed.
Only to realise:
1. Assignments not complete.
2. Test subjects not revised. Not even a single one.
Then suddenly feels that fever develops almost instantaneously and 'I seriously need to sleep' first, because as one wakes, need to face reality again.
That's me.
Conclusion made in the end:
Do whatever u can.
and the cycle repeats during the next sem break. =D
I'm.a.chawer: He describes a song as 'reaching the meat', touches his heart he meant. =D
Monday, September 13, 2010
Like Rubberband
Let's start off with a heavy thought to burden our minds.
Intention is what matters in the end rather than the outcome that is being projected in the form of words or actions. She once said. True.
Did a lot of thinking, on many things, as usual, but more frequently, recently.
After assuming, but upon comparing, then justifying from different points of view, finally one learns, realises, understands, accepts in cases where the fact isn't of what one expected, and lastly one grows.
In between, uncomfortness pours in.
Blaming is much easier, because it directs all responsibility away from oneself. One feels better thinking that others are the ones who are not being right.
But as one replays a situation, putting oneself in different shoes of all the subjects involved, including one ownself, one calms down, rethinks, and things aren't that bad after all. And that one is certainly of responsibility too. No escape please miss!
Still a long way to fully understand myself, rejudging my actions from time to time, with hope that I grow into that someone whom I will like when judging from a third persona's view.
Hoping, wishing.
Let's recapture those feathery flashbacks, of light and delightful moments.
Went for cats and dogs with lixin, yeeting, sokmin, weiyie, & yvonne. Shiklin & mienyuh can't make it le.
Kitty Gallore, a bit terrifying. Imagine that layer of ruffled skin as u peel the shell of a hard boiled egg but haven't reach the white yet, except that this kitty's is of bloody pink. The kitty's skin. O! and without a single fur or hair. Bald. o.O
The hospital themed cafe, heartbeat that we intended to go is still not opened, so station one we switched to.
Ah ma's old cucumber soup was yummy, my dinner and supper.
Xiaopengyou, glad that u gained access to the journals finally le!
Time for us to start work tonight, hi-5 from peninsular!
Hey, and is studying abroad in countries with four seasons really boosts meat growth? U gain weight! From ur face in that pic.
Just like a rubberband, I reach a full circle.
Appreciated and well treasured. (:
p/s: to wood tech-kee tian, archi-kee ni and food tech-kee ling, enjoy holidays gaogao! Let us be happy happy before going back to penang island!
Intention is what matters in the end rather than the outcome that is being projected in the form of words or actions. She once said. True.
Did a lot of thinking, on many things, as usual, but more frequently, recently.
After assuming, but upon comparing, then justifying from different points of view, finally one learns, realises, understands, accepts in cases where the fact isn't of what one expected, and lastly one grows.
In between, uncomfortness pours in.
Blaming is much easier, because it directs all responsibility away from oneself. One feels better thinking that others are the ones who are not being right.
But as one replays a situation, putting oneself in different shoes of all the subjects involved, including one ownself, one calms down, rethinks, and things aren't that bad after all. And that one is certainly of responsibility too. No escape please miss!
Still a long way to fully understand myself, rejudging my actions from time to time, with hope that I grow into that someone whom I will like when judging from a third persona's view.
Hoping, wishing.
Let's recapture those feathery flashbacks, of light and delightful moments.
Went for cats and dogs with lixin, yeeting, sokmin, weiyie, & yvonne. Shiklin & mienyuh can't make it le.
Kitty Gallore, a bit terrifying. Imagine that layer of ruffled skin as u peel the shell of a hard boiled egg but haven't reach the white yet, except that this kitty's is of bloody pink. The kitty's skin. O! and without a single fur or hair. Bald. o.O
The hospital themed cafe, heartbeat that we intended to go is still not opened, so station one we switched to.
Ah ma's old cucumber soup was yummy, my dinner and supper.
Xiaopengyou, glad that u gained access to the journals finally le!
Time for us to start work tonight, hi-5 from peninsular!
Hey, and is studying abroad in countries with four seasons really boosts meat growth? U gain weight! From ur face in that pic.
Just like a rubberband, I reach a full circle.
Appreciated and well treasured. (:
p/s: to wood tech-kee tian, archi-kee ni and food tech-kee ling, enjoy holidays gaogao! Let us be happy happy before going back to penang island!
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Ruyi Turns One
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^ Birthday baby ready to go. ^.^//
^ Gu ma and baby ruyi (staring at the grapes actually =P).JPG)
^Focus hard on DS (Me too dunno what does ds abbreviate for actually =D outdated sudah)
^Mae gugu, popo, and mummy, as pretty as always! n.n.JPG)
^Mummy closes eyes, but this shot is for baby ruyi, too cute to not upload.
^Sweet stare when calls ruyi by her name, cutie pie!
^Ruyi huh-ed.
^Ruyi wants to comb her hair =D
^phew-it, this is mae. =DFriday:
All of us bumped into the alphard, this time without the need to squeeze like sticky cheese nor stack lap on top of lap like chips inside pringles.
All of us bumped into the alphard, this time without the need to squeeze like sticky cheese nor stack lap on top of lap like chips inside pringles.
Here we go, to kl, to celebrate ruyi’s first birthday.
First as in this little baby is now one years old.
Shyan jie is driving since Uncle Koong Sinn is not following.
First as in this little baby is now one years old.
Shyan jie is driving since Uncle Koong Sinn is not following.
U'll see meitingyeoh driving on the highway someday too, with huge trendy dark shades (leopard print frames if possible muahaha!), looking just like an independent superwoman! Yea-ay!!
Haha!
Laptop brought along.
Laptop brought along.
Of course lah, me need to play games mah and get updated with fb wat!
Actually cos homework not done ish!
Without Jzui, the eldest, the younger ones (Jzen & Jzim) are more control-able, which is GREAT!!
Saturday:
Birthday lunch at emperor’s garden.
Without Jzui, the eldest, the younger ones (Jzen & Jzim) are more control-able, which is GREAT!!
Saturday:
Birthday lunch at emperor’s garden.
Announcing the arrival of our majesty, the queen, prince and the princesses! =D
A full one, a total of 9 dishes, just like what we usually eat in wedding dinners.
Ruyi is one blissful baby indeed.
A full one, a total of 9 dishes, just like what we usually eat in wedding dinners.
Ruyi is one blissful baby indeed.
Mah, how come I don't remember having one de? Can replace now de ma? =P
At night, we head towards one-u, ladies only, exclude the kids.
Shopping, me, no actually, WE LIKEY! =D
Sunday, today:
Breakfast at the curve. Pappa rich.
At night, we head towards one-u, ladies only, exclude the kids.
Shopping, me, no actually, WE LIKEY! =D
Sunday, today:
Breakfast at the curve. Pappa rich.
And the pappa goes to....tadaa! Jason gor gor!
In future, there’ll be one shopping mall named The Straight Cut! MUAHAHA!
Okay, name given by elaineyeoh.
Now:
Rushing assignment.
I'm a deadmeat-to-be.
In future, there’ll be one shopping mall named The Straight Cut! MUAHAHA!
Okay, name given by elaineyeoh.
Now:
Rushing assignment.
I'm a deadmeat-to-be.
P/s: Fruit Works' fruit juices at one-u really work, order 'water work' (a combination of watermelon, pineapple and another tropical fruit that i forgot =P) NICE!
P/s/s: Pappa rich's curry mee, is not as nice as nasi lemak. Tau-fu-fa with brown sugar, slippery smooth, the taufu just slid through my tongue down the throat, reaching my stomach. Aahh, full! yumm-ay!
P/s/s/s: Am waiting for cotton-on to arrive penang, pretty pretty please?
Monday, September 6, 2010
Return Home
This is the title of my short story, the one I wrote from the age of 20 to me turning 21. (cos I wrote it on my birthday's eve! lol)
Last minute work again although I sweared not to procrastinate 8 weeks ago when the assignment is passed on us.
I'm not a homey girl, phrases like 'I miss home', 'I love my home' were too old-fashioned, I thought once.
Only in uni, 'I wanna go home!!!' is no longer an alien masterpiece u hear me shout.
Separated by some other states in between, Kuantan is 9 hours from Penang, by bus, and that is, if the bus driver risks his driving license and SPEEDS!
Home,
Is where heater is there when u feel too cold to shower but cannot don't shower.
Is where food is well served and u don't have to wash the plates because mum will say, 'leave them aside, go study.' But actually u go upstairs, lock the room, on the aircond, pura-pura as though studying but facebooking or sleep like a pig.
Is where u no need to pay RM3 for ur washing machine to spin ur clothes. (somemore need coins de wo, only 50cents and 20cents and not to say very clean pun) complaining, yeslah!
Is where u can change a mountain of clothes but ur pail that stores dirty clothes will never turn into a mountain. (wanna see how a mountain of clothes looked like? go to tian's room wakaka =P)
Is where when u open the door, u can still walk to other rooms such as ur sis's to kacau them, muahaha! After tired of studying.
Is where when u're upset about little things happened in school (hana, uni life is not that easy leh!) and u can go home to throw up the whole story to whoever at home, as he or she will surely listen, and it is safe to do so.
Is where u no need to eat maggi without eggs T.T
Is where when u have those happy moments and must share to the whole world, u just tell the whole family.
Is where ah pa, mummy, ah ma, shyan jie, uncle koong sinn, jie, mae, jzui, jzen, and jzim's happy faces are there for u to just look at and then have the strength to face all the difficulties u encounter again. (I wanna cubit yeohmeiyin's face!)
Home, is sweet,
Home, is not just a house,
Nothing beats home!
Last minute work again although I sweared not to procrastinate 8 weeks ago when the assignment is passed on us.
I'm not a homey girl, phrases like 'I miss home', 'I love my home' were too old-fashioned, I thought once.
Only in uni, 'I wanna go home!!!' is no longer an alien masterpiece u hear me shout.
Separated by some other states in between, Kuantan is 9 hours from Penang, by bus, and that is, if the bus driver risks his driving license and SPEEDS!
Home,
Is where heater is there when u feel too cold to shower but cannot don't shower.
Is where food is well served and u don't have to wash the plates because mum will say, 'leave them aside, go study.' But actually u go upstairs, lock the room, on the aircond, pura-pura as though studying but facebooking or sleep like a pig.
Is where u no need to pay RM3 for ur washing machine to spin ur clothes. (somemore need coins de wo, only 50cents and 20cents and not to say very clean pun) complaining, yeslah!
Is where u can change a mountain of clothes but ur pail that stores dirty clothes will never turn into a mountain. (wanna see how a mountain of clothes looked like? go to tian's room wakaka =P)
Is where when u open the door, u can still walk to other rooms such as ur sis's to kacau them, muahaha! After tired of studying.
Is where when u're upset about little things happened in school (hana, uni life is not that easy leh!) and u can go home to throw up the whole story to whoever at home, as he or she will surely listen, and it is safe to do so.
Is where u no need to eat maggi without eggs T.T
Is where when u have those happy moments and must share to the whole world, u just tell the whole family.
Is where ah pa, mummy, ah ma, shyan jie, uncle koong sinn, jie, mae, jzui, jzen, and jzim's happy faces are there for u to just look at and then have the strength to face all the difficulties u encounter again. (I wanna cubit yeohmeiyin's face!)
Home, is sweet,
Home, is not just a house,
Nothing beats home!
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Both black and white
Weather is weird today, so as my mood.
I was drawn by the loud thunder at 12 noon, yes, when it is supposed to be the hottest part of the day.
Peeping out through the slits of those glasses assembled neatly, layer by layer to form the window, the outside world is still bright.
And then, another strike of thunder is heard.
We dare not risk getting the clothes that are being washed midnight amidst our current hectic life drenched wet just by one wash of mother nature.
Yes indeed, I remember how sour and frustrated my heart felt as I recall the scene of the entire strings of clothes I washed with my bear hands dripping water, not because they are freshly hung but this was after the rain.
I will not describe all rains as stupid, inappropriate as I too longed for a juicy rain to quench the thirst of those heat emmiting, dry, wrinkled sandy grounds.
So, there we went, hurried downstairs to save xiao fei's clothes.
And it was weird enough.
To be glared by the noonday sun yet as we raise our head up high, the sky is as black as the blueblack I once had from a terrible fall.
Weird enough.
And now, I have to admit, I'm really stressed out.
Controlled by emotions I hated, stirred with a mix of anger, hopelessness and anxiety.
Worst still, transferring such negativity to surrounding people. So so WRONG!
I'm trying to remind myself that optimism should be held instead.
Yes, ni, I too want to believe that tomorrow will be a better day!
I was drawn by the loud thunder at 12 noon, yes, when it is supposed to be the hottest part of the day.
Peeping out through the slits of those glasses assembled neatly, layer by layer to form the window, the outside world is still bright.
And then, another strike of thunder is heard.
We dare not risk getting the clothes that are being washed midnight amidst our current hectic life drenched wet just by one wash of mother nature.
Yes indeed, I remember how sour and frustrated my heart felt as I recall the scene of the entire strings of clothes I washed with my bear hands dripping water, not because they are freshly hung but this was after the rain.
I will not describe all rains as stupid, inappropriate as I too longed for a juicy rain to quench the thirst of those heat emmiting, dry, wrinkled sandy grounds.
So, there we went, hurried downstairs to save xiao fei's clothes.
And it was weird enough.
To be glared by the noonday sun yet as we raise our head up high, the sky is as black as the blueblack I once had from a terrible fall.
Weird enough.
And now, I have to admit, I'm really stressed out.
Controlled by emotions I hated, stirred with a mix of anger, hopelessness and anxiety.
Worst still, transferring such negativity to surrounding people. So so WRONG!
I'm trying to remind myself that optimism should be held instead.
Yes, ni, I too want to believe that tomorrow will be a better day!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Haywired
I hate myself for being emotionally emo.
I ended the day like an irritating woman.
Less answering back, and once answered, they are words that the listener would want to punch me on the face hard after interpreting.
I didn't receive a brutal return of course.
Because I know that my listener is trying hard to control to not do so.
She's a close friend of mine.
At least, she tops the list here.
I'm like a shit, asking to be slapped. Someone please slap me aih.
Sorry for being like this yesterday night.
I'm sorry.
I ended the day like an irritating woman.
Less answering back, and once answered, they are words that the listener would want to punch me on the face hard after interpreting.
I didn't receive a brutal return of course.
Because I know that my listener is trying hard to control to not do so.
She's a close friend of mine.
At least, she tops the list here.
I'm like a shit, asking to be slapped. Someone please slap me aih.
Sorry for being like this yesterday night.
I'm sorry.
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Like a magnet
Stealthily again, I took a swift glimpse. The frequency of this which increases exponentially really scares me.
I convince myself not to do so, fearing that this once in a while honey sweet will end up bitter gout sour. Worse still, scar-forming pain.
My logic brain asks me to not jump into thinking that the bed of roses is silky smooth.
What if thorns were cleverly hidden?
Yet my emotional mind directs me to just flow with my feelings.
There I am, tugging the coarse rope, just to ensure that I shall not fall uglily.
Two quizzes down, one english test checked.
We 'huh?-ed' at Mr Sufwan when he mysteriously reveals the title of our narrative which is 'Woman'.
Now this is interesting.
I should have guessed this by the hint given by sir whom mentioned 'manless society' repeatingly.
I'm full of my masterpiece.
But yet the beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
Please please dear fairygod mother, please flake some silver dust on my essay so that it appeals to Mr Sufwan's taste.
And I was describing roti canai in case u're wondering.
Why is magnet that sticky? help!
I convince myself not to do so, fearing that this once in a while honey sweet will end up bitter gout sour. Worse still, scar-forming pain.
My logic brain asks me to not jump into thinking that the bed of roses is silky smooth.
What if thorns were cleverly hidden?
Yet my emotional mind directs me to just flow with my feelings.
There I am, tugging the coarse rope, just to ensure that I shall not fall uglily.
Two quizzes down, one english test checked.
We 'huh?-ed' at Mr Sufwan when he mysteriously reveals the title of our narrative which is 'Woman'.
Now this is interesting.
I should have guessed this by the hint given by sir whom mentioned 'manless society' repeatingly.
I'm full of my masterpiece.
But yet the beauty lies in the eyes of the beholder.
Please please dear fairygod mother, please flake some silver dust on my essay so that it appeals to Mr Sufwan's taste.
And I was describing roti canai in case u're wondering.
Why is magnet that sticky? help!
Thursday, August 12, 2010
My nose is still straight
My life is once again unorganized.
Imagine that I'm one of those itchy ants.
Now I'm distorted from that straight line which is supposed to lead me to food since the chemical trail in front is being wiped off.
I'm middle of nowhere and am frantically searching for that correct path.
How nice if bread crumbs were left just like in Hansel and Gretel.
So that I can pick them up and munch them off. muahaha, yes, I'm hungry again =P
I can't believe such hilarious accident actually happens on me, real life me!
If I were to watch myself from far distance, I would have been developing stomach cramps cos of non-stop laughing.
They should have invented glasses for the clumsy normal sighted like me.
Something must be very wrong with my eyes.
Lack of beta carotene I supposed.
Should have abide by dad's nag to eat carrot since my kindergarten years.
So that I have good eye sight just like bugsbunny. Haha, pa, u're so cute!!=D
That aluminium or iron steel really hit my nose hard.
Or actually I too knock on it loud.
And super embarrasing leh wei, with the photostating guy trying his might to not laugh too laud.
I saw u laughing, so no use cover ur mouth brother!
Paiseh-nya.
Thought my nose would swell just by touch.
No mirror to check upon since I'm on my way walking hurrily for a meeting.
Feel as if there will me a long horizontal bumper on my nose.
And tomorrow is not weekend!
In other words, I shall need to face my coursemates. ohmygodohmygodohmygod!
Pheeewh! When I realise that it just looks as if I have an acne on my nose burst. Lol.
So yay! Still straight and not senget! =D
Imagine that I'm one of those itchy ants.
Now I'm distorted from that straight line which is supposed to lead me to food since the chemical trail in front is being wiped off.
I'm middle of nowhere and am frantically searching for that correct path.
How nice if bread crumbs were left just like in Hansel and Gretel.
So that I can pick them up and munch them off. muahaha, yes, I'm hungry again =P
I can't believe such hilarious accident actually happens on me, real life me!
If I were to watch myself from far distance, I would have been developing stomach cramps cos of non-stop laughing.
They should have invented glasses for the clumsy normal sighted like me.
Something must be very wrong with my eyes.
Lack of beta carotene I supposed.
Should have abide by dad's nag to eat carrot since my kindergarten years.
So that I have good eye sight just like bugsbunny. Haha, pa, u're so cute!!=D
That aluminium or iron steel really hit my nose hard.
Or actually I too knock on it loud.
And super embarrasing leh wei, with the photostating guy trying his might to not laugh too laud.
I saw u laughing, so no use cover ur mouth brother!
Paiseh-nya.
Thought my nose would swell just by touch.
No mirror to check upon since I'm on my way walking hurrily for a meeting.
Feel as if there will me a long horizontal bumper on my nose.
And tomorrow is not weekend!
In other words, I shall need to face my coursemates. ohmygodohmygodohmygod!
Pheeewh! When I realise that it just looks as if I have an acne on my nose burst. Lol.
So yay! Still straight and not senget! =D
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Clear Crystal
If I were to describe my past week, it will be a mixture of relief, happiness, busy yes as usual, satisfying, not so stressful but enjoying.
I caught up with all people whom weighed loads to me.
Had lekor hour with yeye, pheili, gui and lek.
Had supper with ling and tian.
Had dinner and lunch at same old roti bakar with yomayyin.
Had visited super super seniors' convocation and reunite with both my pharmily. Ken and Chin Lian.
Had kacau mimimumu while she's completing her project.
Had taken rapid with lixin to queensbay at 4pm in hope to watch Inception but we ended up with hot angelina jolie's SALT, evelyn salt.
Filled with twist and turns, suspense and thus, I rate it as worth watching (:
I like the fragrance of memory, the smile it would bring u whenever u recall, u reminisce.
It has such strong power that the content of it sways ur emotions and occuppies ur mind when u think and think.
Eating out at midnight.
Shouting loud when conversing with one another.
Pointing foul fingers to bid goodbye.
Only two of us.
Movie and yongtaufoo.
I like this week! <3
This time it is candy flavoured sweet, and brightly coloured just like a lolly.
I caught up with all people whom weighed loads to me.
Had lekor hour with yeye, pheili, gui and lek.
Had supper with ling and tian.
Had dinner and lunch at same old roti bakar with yomayyin.
Had visited super super seniors' convocation and reunite with both my pharmily. Ken and Chin Lian.
Had kacau mimimumu while she's completing her project.
Had taken rapid with lixin to queensbay at 4pm in hope to watch Inception but we ended up with hot angelina jolie's SALT, evelyn salt.
Filled with twist and turns, suspense and thus, I rate it as worth watching (:
I like the fragrance of memory, the smile it would bring u whenever u recall, u reminisce.
It has such strong power that the content of it sways ur emotions and occuppies ur mind when u think and think.
Eating out at midnight.
Shouting loud when conversing with one another.
Pointing foul fingers to bid goodbye.
Only two of us.
Movie and yongtaufoo.
I like this week! <3
This time it is candy flavoured sweet, and brightly coloured just like a lolly.
Thursday, July 29, 2010
Expensive Stars
Spending money like the stars in change of a luxurious aromatic drink of those beans was what we crazily did yesterday.
I like the melting sweetness between the upper surface of my tongue and my lelangit, while trying to suck up all that creamy texture from my fork.
It was embarassed asking for extra spoons which i found from the barista later that forks should be used instead. aaar, paise-nya.
After my first cup of vanilla drink 3 years back, this is my second treated by this so important girl. Just because both of us has the same butt size. Haha, of course not, it preciously weighs more than that!
Glad that I can still breathe and eat happily even when life hits me hard on face.
Thanks xiao fei! n.n
I like the melting sweetness between the upper surface of my tongue and my lelangit, while trying to suck up all that creamy texture from my fork.
It was embarassed asking for extra spoons which i found from the barista later that forks should be used instead. aaar, paise-nya.
After my first cup of vanilla drink 3 years back, this is my second treated by this so important girl. Just because both of us has the same butt size. Haha, of course not, it preciously weighs more than that!
Glad that I can still breathe and eat happily even when life hits me hard on face.
Thanks xiao fei! n.n
Monday, July 26, 2010
Gone with the wind.
The title scented romantic.
But that wasn't the response of my olfactory receptors, my smell buds.
I smell fresh air with a tinge of grassy flavour as I listen to the razoring sound which is emitted from the field.
A week of moody cold wet week is over.
But my pants, inner wears and my tees are still hanging on that wire coated with a layer of greenish pvc.
They are still damp I supposed.
Given time, they will dry.
As Mr Sunny Sun glitters vibrantly with his powerful golden rays.
After all, there will always be sun after the pouring rain.
But that wasn't the response of my olfactory receptors, my smell buds.
I smell fresh air with a tinge of grassy flavour as I listen to the razoring sound which is emitted from the field.
A week of moody cold wet week is over.
But my pants, inner wears and my tees are still hanging on that wire coated with a layer of greenish pvc.
They are still damp I supposed.
Given time, they will dry.
As Mr Sunny Sun glitters vibrantly with his powerful golden rays.
After all, there will always be sun after the pouring rain.
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Sorry
I'm wrong.
Forgive me.
Pretty and very beautiful please?
Me smiling with my lips apart and two rows of my teeth shown. yie*
To cecelia who is sweet and nice: Sorry for hurting ur feelings, I promise it will not happen twice.
U deserve the best and I'll treat u so (: with my best!
C:
Forgive me.
Pretty and very beautiful please?
Me smiling with my lips apart and two rows of my teeth shown. yie*
To cecelia who is sweet and nice: Sorry for hurting ur feelings, I promise it will not happen twice.
U deserve the best and I'll treat u so (: with my best!
C:
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Rosy Pink
Woke again by my constant rubbing, scratching and marking of # signs on those rosy pink, buttoned up marks all over my body, from neck to the back of my feed. Those mini vampires just can't stop sucking from me, why?
I'm sitting on my chair, with my lappie flipped open, secluded by total darkness except the contrasting flare which my lappie screen reflects on my face. I suppose I'm going to turn blind sooner or later. Someone please help! by buying me a guiding stick for the blinds. =D joking ny ma.
Dengue mosquito, I'm spotcheking u thoroughly, I desperately need to unveil ur poisoning bites to complete the task I have in hand.
'ngiiiiiii...!' I hate all that shriek produced from the rubbing between both of ur wings. Tear them off is something I imagine, with a broad smile. muahaha.
Please don't give me ur teethless bite tonight, ok ma? pretty please in exchange of a steaming hot broad flour mee? served with a plate of chilli padies? smile to myself again.
p/s: I love both my juniors, they're great, as I wished. n.n
I'm sitting on my chair, with my lappie flipped open, secluded by total darkness except the contrasting flare which my lappie screen reflects on my face. I suppose I'm going to turn blind sooner or later. Someone please help! by buying me a guiding stick for the blinds. =D joking ny ma.
Dengue mosquito, I'm spotcheking u thoroughly, I desperately need to unveil ur poisoning bites to complete the task I have in hand.
'ngiiiiiii...!' I hate all that shriek produced from the rubbing between both of ur wings. Tear them off is something I imagine, with a broad smile. muahaha.
Please don't give me ur teethless bite tonight, ok ma? pretty please in exchange of a steaming hot broad flour mee? served with a plate of chilli padies? smile to myself again.
p/s: I love both my juniors, they're great, as I wished. n.n
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Tyra's mail! Thought of America's Next Top Model pulak haha.
I'm here in Penang, right now, carrying out an important mission, posting.
Instead of a letter, I'm posting my sis.
Abandoned the conventional stamp and envelope, we opt for expensive petrol and car, and our fully experienced, professionally skilled pappa is driving.
yomayyin, u're too fi to fit in an envelope la. muahaha.
There goes yomayyin,
Bearing a sourplum like face,
The old ikan billy eyes,
And her stinky pillow.
U know she's unhappy when she talks less. yes de, the usual she is talkative. =P
I'm here in Penang, right now, carrying out an important mission, posting.
Instead of a letter, I'm posting my sis.
Abandoned the conventional stamp and envelope, we opt for expensive petrol and car, and our fully experienced, professionally skilled pappa is driving.
yomayyin, u're too fi to fit in an envelope la. muahaha.
There goes yomayyin,
Bearing a sourplum like face,
The old ikan billy eyes,
And her stinky pillow.
U know she's unhappy when she talks less. yes de, the usual she is talkative. =P
yomayyin,
I promise I'll miss u in this one week.
U got restu, it means rest.u,
so rest more yea, don't study study till crazy.
I'll be ur loyal helper today, so next sunday, U BETTER COME.
Be a good boy ar, guai.
muacks. yerr, yuck. haha.
Monday, June 28, 2010
小阎， and his philosophy of life.
From 北京 to Kuala Lum.pour (in a malay slang), can't believe I'm back. Wohoo!
This trip to china is not to say super awesomee but it's fruitful and worth remembering.
Won't describe it as tasty as its food is not to say yucky, just that I'm not used to it, after all, there are millions of chinese out there who enjoy beijing's food u see. =P
Just like durian, some may find it awfully smelled but I LOVE IT!
Bring the good of Beijing to Malaysia and leave whatever bad back in China.
This is what he said, with a smile.
I must say, I really liked this tour guide of ours, we called him 小阎。
I laughed whenever I recall his full name 阎志发。=D
Okie, I know mine is not great either. haha.
He's like a big brother to me, after all, I'm always curious on how life changes me if only I had a brother.
Oon owl owl, only a big brother! haha.
His words, his stories, his lessons, his personality.
All of them impressed me.
Except the fact that he smokes.
He is funny.
When he says 每人一个 but he means 美人一个，丑人没有。
When he shouted 小黑 while searching for the one and only indian uncle in our group.
When he asks one aunty to eat more to feed her child inside her tummy, signalling that the aunty has got a big tummy.
When he asks whether we take afternoon naps, 懒觉, which is misinterpreted by an aunty as that part. haha.
And when he finds tuan-tuan dan puan-puan rude as he takes it as 短短胖胖, short and fat.
This trip to china is not to say super awesomee but it's fruitful and worth remembering.
Won't describe it as tasty as its food is not to say yucky, just that I'm not used to it, after all, there are millions of chinese out there who enjoy beijing's food u see. =P
Just like durian, some may find it awfully smelled but I LOVE IT!
Bring the good of Beijing to Malaysia and leave whatever bad back in China.
This is what he said, with a smile.
I must say, I really liked this tour guide of ours, we called him 小阎。
I laughed whenever I recall his full name 阎志发。=D
Okie, I know mine is not great either. haha.
He's like a big brother to me, after all, I'm always curious on how life changes me if only I had a brother.
Oon owl owl, only a big brother! haha.
His words, his stories, his lessons, his personality.
All of them impressed me.
Except the fact that he smokes.
He is funny.
When he says 每人一个 but he means 美人一个，丑人没有。
When he shouted 小黑 while searching for the one and only indian uncle in our group.
When he asks one aunty to eat more to feed her child inside her tummy, signalling that the aunty has got a big tummy.
When he asks whether we take afternoon naps, 懒觉, which is misinterpreted by an aunty as that part. haha.
And when he finds tuan-tuan dan puan-puan rude as he takes it as 短短胖胖, short and fat.
He is health conscious.
Being the one and only son of his parents due to china's birth plan.
His parents nurture him with all the best things in life and inculcate him with all the health tips they know.
And so, he pulak teach us some.
From palm clapping, eye massaging to back massaging.
Not to forget some eating habbits.
This is the first time I take health advice so seriously.
Besides health, other belongings are not our pocessions.
He has great personalities.
He teaches us lessons in life.
On how to be a better person.
One who treats oneself kindly without compromising others.
善待自己，前提是你也得善待别人。
So there it was, an eye opener for me towards life.
If u were to ask me again, is this trip to beijing, tianjin and chengde nice?
I would say, it was fruiful.
And IT'S THE FIRST TRIP OVERSEAS THAT ALL 6 OF US WERE PRESENT!
Beijing,
I'll be back!
With my kids perhaps. haha!
20062010-27062010.
Friday, June 18, 2010
Can'tsleep.
Emotionally sick.
Why and how?
Stupid world. Stupid people. Stupid me.
Not measured by wisdom.
Just for soothing purposes.
better.
deep breathing helps.
time for bed.
i believe sleep takes me away.
greed for more makes people unhappy.
Smile, when u're sad, 'after all faking a smile is much easier than explaining why u're unhappy.'
Quoted by aireen in fb tonight.
I agree fifty-fifty.
My believe is that smile, when u're sad, is the first step u heal urself.
Tomorrow will be happier when I wake.
muahaha. yesh! I believe it to be so.
Why and how?
Stupid world. Stupid people. Stupid me.
Not measured by wisdom.
Just for soothing purposes.
better.
deep breathing helps.
time for bed.
i believe sleep takes me away.
greed for more makes people unhappy.
Smile, when u're sad, 'after all faking a smile is much easier than explaining why u're unhappy.'
Quoted by aireen in fb tonight.
I agree fifty-fifty.
My believe is that smile, when u're sad, is the first step u heal urself.
Tomorrow will be happier when I wake.
muahaha. yesh! I believe it to be so.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
He's not a girl
At first, I thought he was a girl. Jaden Smith is real cute! Yeng ah Little Dre! Hoik yea, karate! Nice one!!
This is how I texted my status in facebook tonight.
Went movie with mae, erjie, and 'Mr Low'. This is what I heard his juniors in hospital call him when they met outside the lift. haha.
And I met Wei Xin today, outside the lad's toilet, Wei Xin with curls, as polite as always.
I regretted ordering pasta topped with sliced ham in tomato sauce for dinner.
Both the sauce and the ham slices tasted raw. Tongue's out.
It was as if the chef took a naked tomato (after stripping it's skin off) and squashed it with his knuckles to produce the tomato sauce.
And I thought ham was supposed to be fried before being served?
Really shake head yucky. sorry chef.
Realised that yun-yong is coffee plus tea.
If you think it's tea plus milk like me, and u happen to take it at night, my dear, u'll end sleepless. Sleep less too.
But yea also, I don't normally drink coffee for its taste but its power to keep my eyes wide open and brain awake.
Ohyeayea, we also got our slippers today, yay!
Mae's and erjie's are silver, mine is shiny dark choco.
I liked mine (:
Thanks mum and mum's colleague!
Mah,
I sleep late not because i napped at noon lah,
it's the yun-yong!
I swear. =P
Saturday, May 29, 2010
Pappa Rich.
Walked much to shop.
Shopping that is.
7 hours of shopping and no wonder my leg feels tight now, like packed with muscles dy hahaha.
Park in The Gardens, cross over to Mid-Valley, back to gardens again and then midvalley turn again.
Shoe hunting for kienyung korkor.
Second jie bought me a silver pair of earrings today n.n
It's not out of sudden de, where got so shuang, each time sem break then spend more than a hundred bucks of my jie's money that easy? nah.
It's my 21st birthday gift lai.
But still, ten-cue ten-cue you ar jie!
muahahaha!
We intend to lunch at this taiwanese origin restaurant called din tai fung.
Jie and pa says its xiao lung bao, small steamed pao-es are super yummy. It looks more like a dumpling to me actually.
Peeping from outside, I think it has the Dragon-I feel.
But too bad, seats are full, stomachs are empty.
So, we went to Pappa Rich instead.
It's nasi lemak is good, because it has spicy yummy sambal!! slurp.
if pappa is rich, will mamma be poor?
mum says eat anything u want and ask dad to check the bill.
so, I figured that the answer is clear: pappa rich, mamma poor.
And I ordered a 9.80 ice-kacang with a durian ice-cream as topping since my pappa rich was there =P
Shopping that is.
7 hours of shopping and no wonder my leg feels tight now, like packed with muscles dy hahaha.
Park in The Gardens, cross over to Mid-Valley, back to gardens again and then midvalley turn again.
Shoe hunting for kienyung korkor.
Second jie bought me a silver pair of earrings today n.n
It's not out of sudden de, where got so shuang, each time sem break then spend more than a hundred bucks of my jie's money that easy? nah.
It's my 21st birthday gift lai.
But still, ten-cue ten-cue you ar jie!
muahahaha!
We intend to lunch at this taiwanese origin restaurant called din tai fung.
Jie and pa says its xiao lung bao, small steamed pao-es are super yummy. It looks more like a dumpling to me actually.
Peeping from outside, I think it has the Dragon-I feel.
But too bad, seats are full, stomachs are empty.
So, we went to Pappa Rich instead.
It's nasi lemak is good, because it has spicy yummy sambal!! slurp.
if pappa is rich, will mamma be poor?
mum says eat anything u want and ask dad to check the bill.
so, I figured that the answer is clear: pappa rich, mamma poor.
And I ordered a 9.80 ice-kacang with a durian ice-cream as topping since my pappa rich was there =P
Flower Water
It's Wesak again, how fast.
Err, yesterday I meant =P
This year, it's a bit different as I spent my first Wesak being in KL.
With my dad <3, only two of us.
We went to a nearby temple to pray.
Chempaka Buddhist Lodge.
In ss23 if I'm not mistaken, still within the area of Petaling Jaya.
This praying area is much smaller than the buddhist temple I used to pray in Kuantan.
But the crowd was huge.
Maybe because KL's population is larger?
Imagine a traffically jammed KL and a smooth like syrup Kuantan road. Haha, that's why I love Kuantan more lah!
This tiny temple is well shaded by the rows of full grown trees lining both sides of the road that leads into it.
People there really made good use of the shady trees.
By setting up temporary stalls selling food on Wesak. Ahh, food!
There's fruity flavoured ice creams, freshly blended fruits with lots of ice (: , the mangosteen shaped pudding on an ice cream stick, decor items and even clothes o.O
A bit like night market pulak.
Did the usual money donating, kneeling down to pray, taking off slippers and hide it well haha, bought a plant without flowers but red leaves to be placed in the buddha-laid flower float after making some silent prays.
Besides health, safety and happiness, I hoped for a not too awful results. Oh my...fingers crossed.
Today is the day I watched Sex And The City movie 1, at KL's home.
The wardrobes, cantik giler!
And I find 'Charlotte' as the prettiest among them four (:
I like it! Waiting for 2 now. ooh!
And yup, I did bathe with the flower water dad and I took from the temple.
After all, u are supposed to smell nice on Wesak! haha =D
Err, yesterday I meant =P
This year, it's a bit different as I spent my first Wesak being in KL.
With my dad <3, only two of us.
We went to a nearby temple to pray.
Chempaka Buddhist Lodge.
In ss23 if I'm not mistaken, still within the area of Petaling Jaya.
This praying area is much smaller than the buddhist temple I used to pray in Kuantan.
But the crowd was huge.
Maybe because KL's population is larger?
Imagine a traffically jammed KL and a smooth like syrup Kuantan road. Haha, that's why I love Kuantan more lah!
This tiny temple is well shaded by the rows of full grown trees lining both sides of the road that leads into it.
People there really made good use of the shady trees.
By setting up temporary stalls selling food on Wesak. Ahh, food!
There's fruity flavoured ice creams, freshly blended fruits with lots of ice (: , the mangosteen shaped pudding on an ice cream stick, decor items and even clothes o.O
A bit like night market pulak.
Did the usual money donating, kneeling down to pray, taking off slippers and hide it well haha, bought a plant without flowers but red leaves to be placed in the buddha-laid flower float after making some silent prays.
Besides health, safety and happiness, I hoped for a not too awful results. Oh my...fingers crossed.
Today is the day I watched Sex And The City movie 1, at KL's home.
The wardrobes, cantik giler!
And I find 'Charlotte' as the prettiest among them four (:
I like it! Waiting for 2 now. ooh!
And yup, I did bathe with the flower water dad and I took from the temple.
After all, u are supposed to smell nice on Wesak! haha =D
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Painful Cry At Midnight
Just within one night, I learn a new world, something new about life perhaps.
I was sitting up straight on my chair, in my room, at my hostel, forcing my eyes to bulge wide, reviving my brain to not shut down and ensuring my hands are on the move in scribbling down all the cis-trans isomers, trying hard to appreciate the aroma of ORGANIC CHEMISTRY, no, it still tastes bitter even though I just walked out from the exam hall at 12 noon. The bitter part of it? I had not enough sleep and the mechanisms are dreadful to be remembered. But yes also, I didn't work hard enough pun lah. =P
There I was, all stressed up, as my mood swang from thinking of my Langkawi and China trip with family and friends to the fact that I forgot all my chemistry facts, aih cham ar!
All of the sudden, I heard of someone loud, real LOUD, I was unsure, separated by a door and the concrete walls of the corridor, what caught my ear was a seemingly weeping laughter? Weird indeed, and I just treated it as another of my hostel mates' midnight pillow talk, perhaps sharing of a funny tale that triggers them to laugh out loud. So, I ignored the outside world and continue memorizing while ling is sleeping, sorry ling, i bo off the glaring lights :(
But then, the laughter persisted, sounding more like a moan than laugh. I have to check. As I twist the door knob and push the door aside, I found that Siti and her roommate are also out from their rooms, awaken by the weird sound too. The truth scared me, shocked me to be exact. The kak next door to mine, her brother passed away and the weird laugh I thought earlier on is actually cries and shouts of agony! Foolish me. And this is my first encounter of someone who cried so loudly as this kak loses her beloved youngest brother due to a road accident. Her face was red, sulky, wet as tears are still rolling non-stop down her cheeks, yes, rolling like a sheet of never ending toilet roll being pulled at one end, not dripping as discrete droplets. She shouted, screamed in pain, anger and grief to go home right away, to take a bus immediately, not realizing how dangerous it was, for her, a girl to travel through states alone in a midnight bus. Imagine what if one of my family member leaves me forever, I can't imagine further, I dislike the feeling of separation, eternal separation some more, I don't want that, I can't bear that!
My life is a bliss as compared, what more do I greed for?
Once again, this reminds me to be thankful of whatever I have.
Thanks, for everything I have.
I was sitting up straight on my chair, in my room, at my hostel, forcing my eyes to bulge wide, reviving my brain to not shut down and ensuring my hands are on the move in scribbling down all the cis-trans isomers, trying hard to appreciate the aroma of ORGANIC CHEMISTRY, no, it still tastes bitter even though I just walked out from the exam hall at 12 noon. The bitter part of it? I had not enough sleep and the mechanisms are dreadful to be remembered. But yes also, I didn't work hard enough pun lah. =P
There I was, all stressed up, as my mood swang from thinking of my Langkawi and China trip with family and friends to the fact that I forgot all my chemistry facts, aih cham ar!
All of the sudden, I heard of someone loud, real LOUD, I was unsure, separated by a door and the concrete walls of the corridor, what caught my ear was a seemingly weeping laughter? Weird indeed, and I just treated it as another of my hostel mates' midnight pillow talk, perhaps sharing of a funny tale that triggers them to laugh out loud. So, I ignored the outside world and continue memorizing while ling is sleeping, sorry ling, i bo off the glaring lights :(
But then, the laughter persisted, sounding more like a moan than laugh. I have to check. As I twist the door knob and push the door aside, I found that Siti and her roommate are also out from their rooms, awaken by the weird sound too. The truth scared me, shocked me to be exact. The kak next door to mine, her brother passed away and the weird laugh I thought earlier on is actually cries and shouts of agony! Foolish me. And this is my first encounter of someone who cried so loudly as this kak loses her beloved youngest brother due to a road accident. Her face was red, sulky, wet as tears are still rolling non-stop down her cheeks, yes, rolling like a sheet of never ending toilet roll being pulled at one end, not dripping as discrete droplets. She shouted, screamed in pain, anger and grief to go home right away, to take a bus immediately, not realizing how dangerous it was, for her, a girl to travel through states alone in a midnight bus. Imagine what if one of my family member leaves me forever, I can't imagine further, I dislike the feeling of separation, eternal separation some more, I don't want that, I can't bear that!
My life is a bliss as compared, what more do I greed for?
Once again, this reminds me to be thankful of whatever I have.
Thanks, for everything I have.
Friday, April 16, 2010
Not Supposed To
When u're mentally alert,
but ur body directs u to the bed, even in broad day light.
When u plan all the seemingly achievable and successful targets,
but none is neither heeded nor hit.
When ur alarm which is set to ring at wee hours really rings mad like a loudspeaker,
but u casually snooze it a gazillion times while lying on bed.
When u know that time is ticking away,
but u still procrastinate.
When u know that watching dramas eats up a few hours of ur study schedule,
but u still turn the tv on and lie like a queen on the couch.
When u're suppose to read up the electronic notes from the power point slides,
but ur itchy hands and curiosity direct u to log into facebook.
All THESE happen to me, right now, when finals is just NEXT WEEK -.-iii
Are u the same too?
If YES, faster stick ur eyes back to that dictionary-thick notes!
but ur body directs u to the bed, even in broad day light.
When u plan all the seemingly achievable and successful targets,
but none is neither heeded nor hit.
When ur alarm which is set to ring at wee hours really rings mad like a loudspeaker,
but u casually snooze it a gazillion times while lying on bed.
When u know that time is ticking away,
but u still procrastinate.
When u know that watching dramas eats up a few hours of ur study schedule,
but u still turn the tv on and lie like a queen on the couch.
When u're suppose to read up the electronic notes from the power point slides,
but ur itchy hands and curiosity direct u to log into facebook.
All THESE happen to me, right now, when finals is just NEXT WEEK -.-iii
Are u the same too?
If YES, faster stick ur eyes back to that dictionary-thick notes!
Thursday, April 8, 2010
Am tired too
When the limit u set is crossed,
When the time u spare others exceeds what is left for urself,
When things u're doing are not within ur responsibilities,
When errands u're running for is far from being convenient,
Think again,
Are others relying too much on u?
Are others over dependent on u?
And why it is always u?
This is the time when u hope that others can understand the fact that u can be tired too.
Going home soon.
Once more, home is indeed the best.
And family is where u can lean and rest on.
Mum & Dad,
I'm coming back..<3
When the time u spare others exceeds what is left for urself,
When things u're doing are not within ur responsibilities,
When errands u're running for is far from being convenient,
Think again,
Are others relying too much on u?
Are others over dependent on u?
And why it is always u?
This is the time when u hope that others can understand the fact that u can be tired too.
Going home soon.
Once more, home is indeed the best.
And family is where u can lean and rest on.
Mum & Dad,
I'm coming back..<3
Saying this, to u (:
To this liangzai brother of mine (see I call u handsome =P),
MR. NG WUA JZUI!
Hey, stay cheerful (especially when u're eating, that HUGE smile when u see food), stay tall (without that tummy, cut it off =P), stay fair, stay loud, and stay young boyboy!
HAPPI-i-i-i-ee 12th Birthda-a-a-y aie!
To miss irene (our pretty stpm maths teacher),
Miss Irene,
It's your big day, stay happy and stay pretty teacher!
"Like a rainbow, let's go!"
Happy Birthday miss irene!! n.n
To blackbeltjiejie,
Tian,
Just see ur post on msn.
Stay strong, hold on and get going!
Quiz away and final is here.
Compensate ur lost marks from quiz in finals aite!
To this girl who is still typing on the comp,
Switch to study mode please!
Apa ni? What pharm student lai? So lazy,ISH! Whack on back side!
Bye first.
p/s: H-O-I-K! Gambatte all!
MR. NG WUA JZUI!
Hey, stay cheerful (especially when u're eating, that HUGE smile when u see food), stay tall (without that tummy, cut it off =P), stay fair, stay loud, and stay young boyboy!
HAPPI-i-i-i-ee 12th Birthda-a-a-y aie!
To miss irene (our pretty stpm maths teacher),
Miss Irene,
It's your big day, stay happy and stay pretty teacher!
"Like a rainbow, let's go!"
Happy Birthday miss irene!! n.n
To blackbeltjiejie,
Tian,
Just see ur post on msn.
Stay strong, hold on and get going!
Quiz away and final is here.
Compensate ur lost marks from quiz in finals aite!
To this girl who is still typing on the comp,
Switch to study mode please!
Apa ni? What pharm student lai? So lazy,ISH! Whack on back side!
Bye first.
p/s: H-O-I-K! Gambatte all!
Wednesday, April 7, 2010
Seven colours.
First there is this glaring noonday sun.
Then there is this swift pouring rain.
When all has ceased,
There is this smell of springy fresh grass,
Droplets of water clinging tight to the tip of leaves,
And this cool cool air sweeping on both cheeks.
As I lift my head up to peep on the sky,
I'm amazed to find a seven-coloured arch,
Yesyes! A rainbow it is!
A beautiful art of nature, with seven colours.
Then there is this swift pouring rain.
When all has ceased,
There is this smell of springy fresh grass,
Droplets of water clinging tight to the tip of leaves,
And this cool cool air sweeping on both cheeks.
As I lift my head up to peep on the sky,
I'm amazed to find a seven-coloured arch,
Yesyes! A rainbow it is!
A beautiful art of nature, with seven colours.
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Be responsible
"It's not a matter of an A, a B or a C. It's your responsibilty towards yourself, the society and your patients in future."
What Dr. Yvone Tan just said today smacked me hard on head. It is so true. Even if u don't care what grades u are getting, even if results are unimportant for u, please have a sense of responsibilty towards urself. That, I'm saying to myself.
mtyo, it's time u study, finals is here, u don't want to disappoint ur parents, especially ur dad, do u?
What Dr. Yvone Tan just said today smacked me hard on head. It is so true. Even if u don't care what grades u are getting, even if results are unimportant for u, please have a sense of responsibilty towards urself. That, I'm saying to myself.
mtyo, it's time u study, finals is here, u don't want to disappoint ur parents, especially ur dad, do u?
Sunday, April 4, 2010
Rice originates from paddy
Yippee!
Current town: Pokok Sena
Status: Having sleep-over tonight in tian's hse.
After all the stress, finally, I get to leave penang! Yay-yay-yay-yay-yay-yaaay! Really need a deep breathe of air outside usm, and the idea of spending my weekend in tian's place really excites me. Although at first I feel slightly scared too cos this is the first time I get to meet tian's family, tian's mummy and daddy, sleep over somemore eh, as an outsider. But now, nope, I was wrong, tian's family is an although noisy (cos filled with daigarjie's shouting =X) but real warm and close-knitted one. Yes, this feeling of togetherness, of a typical chinese family, makes me feel at home, makes me want to go home too, home is so secure and sweet! I'm going to be at home in 5 days time, yesyesyesyesyeshyesh!(n.n)
Today was awesome, good food, good trip, fast driver =P, many shots and warmth from tian's entire family (=
A million xiexie to:
Aunty, tian's lengleng and young mummy: Aunty, xiexieni! U make me feel like in my own house nia, get to eat full full, the duck stew, vege soup and my favourite fish 'gao yu'! yummy!
Uncle, tian's cute daddy: Uncle, ur fruits are really sweet, especially the mangoes, juicy betul! Only get to see u at night cos u work till night, must take care! Reminds me of my dad who works so hard everyday just to give his best in supporting our family. Daddy is always the one who talks least but u know that he cares the most. Showing concern without others knowing indeed heart melting!
Xin-ni, xin-zhao, xin-huan & xin-er: U all got same style when talking de haha, although all different xing ge, next time we go sing k again yea n.n
Tian's lengleng Jiuma and shuaishuai Jiujiu: Aunty and uncle, thanks for everything! for fetching us even when it's raining so heavily, ur handmade sandwiches prepared early in the morning, ur laichi juice, ur cosy third floor of the house which is occupied entirely just by me and tian =D
Last but not least, miss-Oonartian!: sapo blackbeltjiejie! xiexie ni for bringing me back, my first trip to kedah, awesomee-memorably-wonderfully-GREAT! real shuang to go back with u! cham liao u, maybe have to bring an extra me next time when u go bac liao =P
Cham, shall complete pharmaco lab report now, I know I know, tmr due date, sheesh.
To yomayyin who is having her finals tmr: mong-zhu-ngan,rmb to rest, u're not a robot, do ur best will do, dun study till become sasa! I pray hard hard for u!
Gambatte yomayyin!! Hoik-yea! <3
Current town: Pokok Sena
Status: Having sleep-over tonight in tian's hse.
After all the stress, finally, I get to leave penang! Yay-yay-yay-yay-yay-yaaay! Really need a deep breathe of air outside usm, and the idea of spending my weekend in tian's place really excites me. Although at first I feel slightly scared too cos this is the first time I get to meet tian's family, tian's mummy and daddy, sleep over somemore eh, as an outsider. But now, nope, I was wrong, tian's family is an although noisy (cos filled with daigarjie's shouting =X) but real warm and close-knitted one. Yes, this feeling of togetherness, of a typical chinese family, makes me feel at home, makes me want to go home too, home is so secure and sweet! I'm going to be at home in 5 days time, yesyesyesyesyeshyesh!(n.n)
Today was awesome, good food, good trip, fast driver =P, many shots and warmth from tian's entire family (=
A million xiexie to:
Aunty, tian's lengleng and young mummy: Aunty, xiexieni! U make me feel like in my own house nia, get to eat full full, the duck stew, vege soup and my favourite fish 'gao yu'! yummy!
Uncle, tian's cute daddy: Uncle, ur fruits are really sweet, especially the mangoes, juicy betul! Only get to see u at night cos u work till night, must take care! Reminds me of my dad who works so hard everyday just to give his best in supporting our family. Daddy is always the one who talks least but u know that he cares the most. Showing concern without others knowing indeed heart melting!
Xin-ni, xin-zhao, xin-huan & xin-er: U all got same style when talking de haha, although all different xing ge, next time we go sing k again yea n.n
Tian's lengleng Jiuma and shuaishuai Jiujiu: Aunty and uncle, thanks for everything! for fetching us even when it's raining so heavily, ur handmade sandwiches prepared early in the morning, ur laichi juice, ur cosy third floor of the house which is occupied entirely just by me and tian =D
Last but not least, miss-Oonartian!: sapo blackbeltjiejie! xiexie ni for bringing me back, my first trip to kedah, awesomee-memorably-wonderfully-GREAT! real shuang to go back with u! cham liao u, maybe have to bring an extra me next time when u go bac liao =P
Cham, shall complete pharmaco lab report now, I know I know, tmr due date, sheesh.
To yomayyin who is having her finals tmr: mong-zhu-ngan,rmb to rest, u're not a robot, do ur best will do, dun study till become sasa! I pray hard hard for u!
Gambatte yomayyin!! Hoik-yea! <3
Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Blackout, not on purpose
Today,
Is just another busy day.
As I recapture,
Piggie back my laptop to school.yesh yesh, toshiba is heavy and I'm complaining
Mind still trying hard to secure all pharmacology notes that will be out in the quiz I'm attending to now. my mind is just like a lappie in low-battery mode now and I seriously need a pendrive to save up all freshly key-ed in memory
After quiz,
Smile on face, finally, there is a quiz that I feel that I answered well de! just like rain pouring in a desert yeepee! heart is dancing
Have laptop on, continue to touch-up SHE report.
When communication skills lecture approaching,
Dr Azmi *ehem*-ed us who are still melepak-ing with our laptops outside the lecture hall. we memang intend to pond.thing de but from teacher's non-verbal cues, we sense danger hahaha, after all the communication classes, we can interpret underlying emotions like pro liao hahaha. =P
Also, my lappie is near dying, out of battery. oh dear.
There, we enter class and sat on the left of the benches.
When Group 15, mrtys's group is presenting,
I spotted a socket and I immediately think of my dying lappie.
The next thing I did,
Fast fast take out charger and go charge my toshiba.
Just at the very moment when the tip of my pointing finger comes in contact with the switch and slight force is exerted to turn the switch on,
*POOF*
Whole lecture hall turned charcoal black.
I really wide-eyed, mouth covered with both palms.
Quickly turn the switch off due to my reflex. thanks spinal cord
And thank god, the electric supply recovers.
Whole class gone wild, not knowing that I'm the culprit and treat it as another usual technical mishap in our sch.
Group 15 members' face filled with question marks, trying all their might to revive their power point presentation.
I sat still, didn't move, dare not move.omgomgomgchamliaola
Turning only head back,
Spot cs's huge smile and laughter, also telling me to calm down and not to worry. how can I not worry, I ruined other people group's presentation! this is so not good, ohmygodohmygodohmygod!
Listen to cy & sy, telling me not to worry cos they won't tell the rest that it is ME mememememe who cause the black out. thanks but omgomgomg
In the end,
Electricity recovers but LCD screen doesn't function.
Group 15 has to continue without powerpoint. omgomgomg, it's me omg
Later after class,
Tell ys the truth.
His response is real funny lol.
With him stepping few steps back, in shock & disbelief!
Really sorry! solisolisolisoli
lesson learnt: Never ever go blindly plug in a foreign socket.
Is just another busy day.
As I recapture,
Piggie back my laptop to school.yesh yesh, toshiba is heavy and I'm complaining
Mind still trying hard to secure all pharmacology notes that will be out in the quiz I'm attending to now. my mind is just like a lappie in low-battery mode now and I seriously need a pendrive to save up all freshly key-ed in memory
After quiz,
Smile on face, finally, there is a quiz that I feel that I answered well de! just like rain pouring in a desert yeepee! heart is dancing
Have laptop on, continue to touch-up SHE report.
When communication skills lecture approaching,
Dr Azmi *ehem*-ed us who are still melepak-ing with our laptops outside the lecture hall. we memang intend to pond.thing de but from teacher's non-verbal cues, we sense danger hahaha, after all the communication classes, we can interpret underlying emotions like pro liao hahaha. =P
Also, my lappie is near dying, out of battery. oh dear.
There, we enter class and sat on the left of the benches.
When Group 15, mrtys's group is presenting,
I spotted a socket and I immediately think of my dying lappie.
The next thing I did,
Fast fast take out charger and go charge my toshiba.
Just at the very moment when the tip of my pointing finger comes in contact with the switch and slight force is exerted to turn the switch on,
*POOF*
Whole lecture hall turned charcoal black.
I really wide-eyed, mouth covered with both palms.
Quickly turn the switch off due to my reflex. thanks spinal cord
And thank god, the electric supply recovers.
Whole class gone wild, not knowing that I'm the culprit and treat it as another usual technical mishap in our sch.
Group 15 members' face filled with question marks, trying all their might to revive their power point presentation.
I sat still, didn't move, dare not move.omgomgomgchamliaola
Turning only head back,
Spot cs's huge smile and laughter, also telling me to calm down and not to worry. how can I not worry, I ruined other people group's presentation! this is so not good, ohmygodohmygodohmygod!
Listen to cy & sy, telling me not to worry cos they won't tell the rest that it is ME mememememe who cause the black out. thanks but omgomgomg
In the end,
Electricity recovers but LCD screen doesn't function.
Group 15 has to continue without powerpoint. omgomgomg, it's me omg
Later after class,
Tell ys the truth.
His response is real funny lol.
With him stepping few steps back, in shock & disbelief!
Really sorry! solisolisolisoli
lesson learnt: Never ever go blindly plug in a foreign socket.
Saturday, March 27, 2010
All in a row
Recently, too many things crumpled together, too many work to be done, too many thoughts to be blurted out but yet too lil time haih. Got time also better sleep liao, physically and mentally drained. Truth be told, yes, I'm in stress and tired liao. More than 1-kay to be collected, that's a treasurer's task in hand. She's scattered assignments to be compiled into one, that's a dai-gar-jie's punya responsibility. Haha, actually not dai gar jie la, just responsible in gathering everything which has been delayed to ages by snail me. Whole sem de notes to be digested, that's a student and daughter's promise. These, are what entail me next week.
This week, no difference in work load. Heart-squeezing role play presentation for communication skills is completed, kelam-kabut dosage form practical already carried out, and dosage theory test already undergone. And also, we got our chemistry quiz 1's marks le. Although mine is nothing to be proud of but I'm relieved enough to cross the line. But once again, relieve is far from satisfy. I know, more effort need to be poured in. Once again, I need to strengthen my will, like what leong once quoted, 'ur strength is equals to that of ur will'. Easy to speak verbally, doing it is another thing o.O
Speaking of dosage form, another disappointment..It's one of our core subjects this sem where we are being taught the proper hands-on techniques to compound medicines in lab. Our prescription for this midterm test was to prepare a cream and a suspension. Real ganjiong. Everything is done at high speed,
------- fast scanning through the prescription given
------- flip through BPC kasarly (our dictionary-like reference for all medicinal and non-medicinal ingredients) whereby u'll hear loud paper flipping sound and start pondering whether ur once precious BPC will be torn by ur roughness
------- lift head a while and eyes swiftly scan through the surrounding cos tiba-tiba attention driven away by a clean and sharp 'plink-plank' sound cos someone (dunno who cos no time to find out le) break his/her glassware on floor
------- continue forcing urself to think.think.think although whole mind gone haywire and u feel like just switching on the main power supply to burn everything in mind into flames
------- then, hurringly scribble all the jumbled-up procedures that pop in mind, at the same time doubting whether u wrote the correct ones
------- now, start all the messy grabbing of bottles, scooping of powders and oily paste from the narrow mouthed bottles, weighing, mixing, stirring, cooking, initiating a flame at the bunsen burner by shooting its mouth with a gun (i dunno what's that called, fire starter?)
Just at this moment of urgency, clumsy me spilled water into my boiling oily mixture which is needed for my cream preparation. But realising that i'm running short of time, dun care dy, continue to mix the powder, add more water and kacau it over the water bath. Then to realise weird oily droplets floating on my cream solution. Sedih betul. Then peep at coursemate's cream who sits directly opposite to me, his is a uniformly mixed solution wanting to turn cream liao. With the postgraduate keeping a watchful and weird looking eyes on my cream, there i go...pouring my cream into the sink as if it were an unwanted bowl of leftover soup.
What to do, start all over again, then to realise the same product eventhough i switch my sequence of mixing all ingredients. And the consequence? I tak jadi to prepare my 2nd product of suspension T_T Dahlah slow now pulak do wrongly. But luckily i still get to form my cream at the end. Yuan lai as long as u wait a bit longer, stir.stir.stir non-stop, an evenly mixed cream will be form de. Really aiyo ar, what I lack is patience! Urgggghh!
I shall boikot all creamy products for a week! hahaha, say ny la, I still love ice-cream <3 (as long as tian mai tarik us go eat mcD's sundae too often like first sem =P)
p/s: Dosage form is just like Harry Potter's potion class. It's fun de and satisfying too when u berjaya to produce the drug formulations that u're asked to.
Tiny promise made in heart: I must finish producing both prescriptions for dosage form in finals! Herggg! hahaha, we shall see.
This week, no difference in work load. Heart-squeezing role play presentation for communication skills is completed, kelam-kabut dosage form practical already carried out, and dosage theory test already undergone. And also, we got our chemistry quiz 1's marks le. Although mine is nothing to be proud of but I'm relieved enough to cross the line. But once again, relieve is far from satisfy. I know, more effort need to be poured in. Once again, I need to strengthen my will, like what leong once quoted, 'ur strength is equals to that of ur will'. Easy to speak verbally, doing it is another thing o.O
Speaking of dosage form, another disappointment..It's one of our core subjects this sem where we are being taught the proper hands-on techniques to compound medicines in lab. Our prescription for this midterm test was to prepare a cream and a suspension. Real ganjiong. Everything is done at high speed,
------- fast scanning through the prescription given
------- flip through BPC kasarly (our dictionary-like reference for all medicinal and non-medicinal ingredients) whereby u'll hear loud paper flipping sound and start pondering whether ur once precious BPC will be torn by ur roughness
------- lift head a while and eyes swiftly scan through the surrounding cos tiba-tiba attention driven away by a clean and sharp 'plink-plank' sound cos someone (dunno who cos no time to find out le) break his/her glassware on floor
------- continue forcing urself to think.think.think although whole mind gone haywire and u feel like just switching on the main power supply to burn everything in mind into flames
------- then, hurringly scribble all the jumbled-up procedures that pop in mind, at the same time doubting whether u wrote the correct ones
------- now, start all the messy grabbing of bottles, scooping of powders and oily paste from the narrow mouthed bottles, weighing, mixing, stirring, cooking, initiating a flame at the bunsen burner by shooting its mouth with a gun (i dunno what's that called, fire starter?)
Just at this moment of urgency, clumsy me spilled water into my boiling oily mixture which is needed for my cream preparation. But realising that i'm running short of time, dun care dy, continue to mix the powder, add more water and kacau it over the water bath. Then to realise weird oily droplets floating on my cream solution. Sedih betul. Then peep at coursemate's cream who sits directly opposite to me, his is a uniformly mixed solution wanting to turn cream liao. With the postgraduate keeping a watchful and weird looking eyes on my cream, there i go...pouring my cream into the sink as if it were an unwanted bowl of leftover soup.
What to do, start all over again, then to realise the same product eventhough i switch my sequence of mixing all ingredients. And the consequence? I tak jadi to prepare my 2nd product of suspension T_T Dahlah slow now pulak do wrongly. But luckily i still get to form my cream at the end. Yuan lai as long as u wait a bit longer, stir.stir.stir non-stop, an evenly mixed cream will be form de. Really aiyo ar, what I lack is patience! Urgggghh!
I shall boikot all creamy products for a week! hahaha, say ny la, I still love ice-cream <3 (as long as tian mai tarik us go eat mcD's sundae too often like first sem =P)
p/s: Dosage form is just like Harry Potter's potion class. It's fun de and satisfying too when u berjaya to produce the drug formulations that u're asked to.
Tiny promise made in heart: I must finish producing both prescriptions for dosage form in finals! Herggg! hahaha, we shall see.
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