Sinks.

I'm in dilemma of whether to continue with major alterations or to start anew.
I know sir's comments are meant for improvement but can't help being disappointed.
Still standing at far distance away from being a creative writer, not even an amateur I supposed.
Searching for inspirations.

A day to be remembered.
English has always been one subject which I rank it high, I really hope to do well in this paper de.
Continue struggling, you can do it!
this I'm saying to myself.

I shall never forget that amo who talked to me. Can't stop smiling when I recall, my first in this 21 years.
A typical Asian chinese, I shake my head, words can't come out from my mouth, he still thank me and I thank him back. LOL. for asking which makes me happy a little? PERASAN! =D

Today is totally siao, english test all of a sudden and POOF!
I burned my test marks into flames.
Mood is not switched back, cannot squeeze in the fact that we had a test.
Blank.

*************************************************************************************************
After sleeping, I'm revived.
Switched to study mood.
Ciao.

Inner growth. GROW!

这就是长大
by Banghui Tong on Friday, September 17, 2010 at 10:12am

Thanks to xiaoxiaotian for sharing. (^-^) Note the name xiaoxiaotian. Like it! =D

1.学会把亲情放在第一位,把友情放在第二位,把爱情放在够不到的位置
2.学会不和父母顶嘴,学会为了维护友谊让步
3.学会不想着依赖别人,做好自己,让别人依赖你
4.学会认清自己,不是很好,也不算坏,不把头扬的很高,也不拿眼睛盯别人的脚
5.学会把喜欢的人放在心底,默默的喜欢,有种情不需要张扬
6.学会不为了自己喜欢的人和别人争论,或许你并不了解他
7.学会口是心非,看到自己喜欢的人和别人在一起,请祝福
8.学会独自一个人承受一些事,一个人守着一些秘密
9.学会适当减肥,不要过度,为了某些人,坚持
10.学会去关心家人,朋友,不要以为他们不会离开我们,就不在意
11.学会交际,和所有的人搞好关系,踏入社会,面对的人会更多
12.学会掩饰忧伤,对别人笑,要哭,躲被窝里
13.学会成熟处事,即使是装出来的
14.学会在特殊的节日,给别人一个小小的惊喜,感动一个人很简单,让她（他）知道你心中有她（他）的位置
15.学会不相信童话故事,永远记得仙杜瑞拉有的水晶鞋是你没有的
16.学会必要的欺骗,不要说你诚实,埋没了善良更可恶
17.学会为自己的人生做好打算,自己争取来的更值得珍惜
18.学会不计较,忘记一些不愉快,也许你会更快乐
19.学会无条件付出,想想父母,你会释然
20.学会写日记,我们的人生并不是很长,把它记下足可以让你重拾记忆
好好过日子,终会长大,学会不让爱我们的人对我们失望
拿得起,放得下,该放手的时候,不要拖泥带水,告诉自己,学会自爱,也会活得很好… …

This is a meaningful one.
There are so many doubts, questions, situations that I recapture, from time to time, more frequently when I'm alone, the few minutes prior to sleep or even when sitting at the back sit in a car along the many journeys, both short and long ones.
Sometimes, I over think things, made assumptions which are seemingly tragic.
And start to feel sad about it.
Then after a short while, something else happened.
And am happy again!

Being happy, isn't easy.
Having a mind which doesn't cease from the process of maturation is as important.
This note is meaningful, shows that I still need some growing.
Not physically though, imagine Jack and The Beanstalk. =D
So, are u growing too?

Shall be back to recheck.
Anyone, growth factors at sale?

Reminds me of the beginning

When the end is near, one tends to think of the
beginning.

So true.
But this time, it is not about separation, graduation or migration.
The only similarity it shares is that it deals with leave.

The truth is, HOLIDAYS.IS.ENDING!!
Ground rumbles, trees up-rooted, sky turns black, tornado swirls aggresively and sucks me back to USM.
Pathetic image.
Actually uni is not that awful, is just that home is too cosy, and the people within.

As holiday is ending, then one starts to look at the calender, check the exam dates, double check the letter long to-do-list to cross out what have been completed.
Only to realise:
1. Assignments not complete.
2. Test subjects not revised. Not even a single one.
Then suddenly feels that fever develops almost instantaneously and 'I seriously need to sleep' first, because as one wakes, need to face reality again.
That's me.

Conclusion made in the end:
Do whatever u can.

and the cycle repeats during the next sem break. =D

I'm.a.chawer: He describes a song as 'reaching the meat', touches his heart he meant. =D

Like Rubberband

Let's start off with a heavy thought to burden our minds.
Intention is what matters in the end rather than the outcome that is being projected in the form of words or actions. She once said. True.

Did a lot of thinking, on many things, as usual, but more frequently, recently.
After assuming, but upon comparing, then justifying from different points of view, finally one learns, realises, understands, accepts in cases where the fact isn't of what one expected, and lastly one grows.
In between, uncomfortness pours in.
Blaming is much easier, because it directs all responsibility away from oneself. One feels better thinking that others are the ones who are not being right.
But as one replays a situation, putting oneself in different shoes of all the subjects involved, including one ownself, one calms down, rethinks, and things aren't that bad after all. And that one is certainly of responsibility too. No escape please miss!
Still a long way to fully understand myself, rejudging my actions from time to time, with hope that I grow into that someone whom I will like when judging from a third persona's view.
Hoping, wishing.

Let's recapture those feathery flashbacks, of light and delightful moments.
Went for cats and dogs with lixin, yeeting, sokmin, weiyie, & yvonne. Shiklin & mienyuh can't make it le.
Kitty Gallore, a bit terrifying. Imagine that layer of ruffled skin as u peel the shell of a hard boiled egg but haven't reach the white yet, except that this kitty's is of bloody pink. The kitty's skin. O! and without a single fur or hair. Bald. o.O
The hospital themed cafe, heartbeat that we intended to go is still not opened, so station one we switched to.
Ah ma's old cucumber soup was yummy, my dinner and supper.
Xiaopengyou, glad that u gained access to the journals finally le!
Time for us to start work tonight, hi-5 from peninsular!
Hey, and is studying abroad in countries with four seasons really boosts meat growth? U gain weight! From ur face in that pic.

Just like a rubberband, I reach a full circle.
Appreciated and well treasured. (:

p/s: to wood tech-kee tian, archi-kee ni and food tech-kee ling, enjoy holidays gaogao! Let us be happy happy before going back to penang island!

Ruyi Turns One

^ Birthday baby ready to go. ^.^//

^ Gu ma and baby ruyi (staring at the grapes actually =P)


^Focus hard on DS (Me too dunno what does ds abbreviate for actually =D outdated sudah)

^Mae gugu, popo, and mummy, as pretty as always! n.n

^Mummy closes eyes, but this shot is for baby ruyi, too cute to not upload.

^Sweet stare when calls ruyi by her name, cutie pie!

^Ruyi huh-ed.

^Ruyi wants to comb her hair =D

^phew-it, this is mae. =D

Friday:
All of us bumped into the alphard, this time without the need to squeeze like sticky cheese nor stack lap on top of lap like chips inside pringles.

Here we go, to kl, to celebrate ruyi’s first birthday.
First as in this little baby is now one years old.
Shyan jie is driving since Uncle Koong Sinn is not following.

U'll see meitingyeoh driving on the highway someday too, with huge trendy dark shades (leopard print frames if possible muahaha!), looking just like an independent superwoman! Yea-ay!!

Haha!
Laptop brought along.

Of course lah, me need to play games mah and get updated with fb wat!

Actually cos homework not done ish!
Without Jzui, the eldest, the younger ones (Jzen & Jzim) are more control-able, which is GREAT!!

Saturday:
Birthday lunch at emperor’s garden.

Announcing the arrival of our majesty, the queen, prince and the princesses! =D
A full one, a total of 9 dishes, just like what we usually eat in wedding dinners.
Ruyi is one blissful baby indeed.

Mah, how come I don't remember having one de? Can replace now de ma? =P
At night, we head towards one-u, ladies only, exclude the kids.
Shopping, me, no actually, WE LIKEY! =D

Sunday, today:
Breakfast at the curve. Pappa rich.

And the pappa goes to....tadaa! Jason gor gor!
In future, there’ll be one shopping mall named The Straight Cut! MUAHAHA!
Okay, name given by elaineyeoh.

Now:
Rushing assignment.
I'm a deadmeat-to-be.

P/s: Fruit Works' fruit juices at one-u really work, order 'water work' (a combination of watermelon, pineapple and another tropical fruit that i forgot =P) NICE!

P/s/s: Pappa rich's curry mee, is not as nice as nasi lemak. Tau-fu-fa with brown sugar, slippery smooth, the taufu just slid through my tongue down the throat, reaching my stomach. Aahh, full! yumm-ay!

P/s/s/s: Am waiting for cotton-on to arrive penang, pretty pretty please?

Return Home

This is the title of my short story, the one I wrote from the age of 20 to me turning 21. (cos I wrote it on my birthday's eve! lol)
Last minute work again although I sweared not to procrastinate 8 weeks ago when the assignment is passed on us.

I'm not a homey girl, phrases like 'I miss home', 'I love my home' were too old-fashioned, I thought once.
Only in uni, 'I wanna go home!!!' is no longer an alien masterpiece u hear me shout.
Separated by some other states in between, Kuantan is 9 hours from Penang, by bus, and that is, if the bus driver risks his driving license and SPEEDS!

Home,
Is where heater is there when u feel too cold to shower but cannot don't shower.
Is where food is well served and u don't have to wash the plates because mum will say, 'leave them aside, go study.' But actually u go upstairs, lock the room, on the aircond, pura-pura as though studying but facebooking or sleep like a pig.
Is where u no need to pay RM3 for ur washing machine to spin ur clothes. (somemore need coins de wo, only 50cents and 20cents and not to say very clean pun) complaining, yeslah!
Is where u can change a mountain of clothes but ur pail that stores dirty clothes will never turn into a mountain. (wanna see how a mountain of clothes looked like? go to tian's room wakaka =P)
Is where when u open the door, u can still walk to other rooms such as ur sis's to kacau them, muahaha! After tired of studying.
Is where when u're upset about little things happened in school (hana, uni life is not that easy leh!) and u can go home to throw up the whole story to whoever at home, as he or she will surely listen, and it is safe to do so.
Is where u no need to eat maggi without eggs T.T
Is where when u have those happy moments and must share to the whole world, u just tell the whole family.
Is where ah pa, mummy, ah ma, shyan jie, uncle koong sinn, jie, mae, jzui, jzen, and jzim's happy faces are there for u to just look at and then have the strength to face all the difficulties u encounter again. (I wanna cubit yeohmeiyin's face!)

Home, is sweet,
Home, is not just a house,
Nothing beats home!