Blackout, not on purpose

Today,

Is just another busy day.
As I recapture,

Piggie back my laptop to school.yesh yesh, toshiba is heavy and I'm complaining
Mind still trying hard to secure all pharmacology notes that will be out in the quiz I'm attending to now. my mind is just like a lappie in low-battery mode now and I seriously need a pendrive to save up all freshly key-ed in memory

After quiz,
Smile on face, finally, there is a quiz that I feel that I answered well de! just like rain pouring in a desert yeepee! heart is dancing
Have laptop on, continue to touch-up SHE report.

When communication skills lecture approaching,
Dr Azmi *ehem*-ed us who are still melepak-ing with our laptops outside the lecture hall. we memang intend to pond.thing de but from teacher's non-verbal cues, we sense danger hahaha, after all the communication classes, we can interpret underlying emotions like pro liao hahaha. =P
Also, my lappie is near dying, out of battery. oh dear.
There, we enter class and sat on the left of the benches.

When Group 15, mrtys's group is presenting,
I spotted a socket and I immediately think of my dying lappie.

The next thing I did,
Fast fast take out charger and go charge my toshiba.

Just at the very moment when the tip of my pointing finger comes in contact with the switch and slight force is exerted to turn the switch on,

*POOF*

Whole lecture hall turned charcoal black.
I really wide-eyed, mouth covered with both palms.
Quickly turn the switch off due to my reflex. thanks spinal cord
And thank god, the electric supply recovers.
Whole class gone wild, not knowing that I'm the culprit and treat it as another usual technical mishap in our sch.
Group 15 members' face filled with question marks, trying all their might to revive their power point presentation.

I sat still, didn't move, dare not move.omgomgomgchamliaola

Turning only head back,
Spot cs's huge smile and laughter, also telling me to calm down and not to worry. how can I not worry, I ruined other people group's presentation! this is so not good, ohmygodohmygodohmygod!
Listen to cy & sy, telling me not to worry cos they won't tell the rest that it is ME mememememe who cause the black out. thanks but omgomgomg

In the end,
Electricity recovers but LCD screen doesn't function.
Group 15 has to continue without powerpoint. omgomgomg, it's me omg

Later after class,
Tell ys the truth.
His response is real funny lol.
With him stepping few steps back, in shock & disbelief!
Really sorry! solisolisolisoli

lesson learnt: Never ever go blindly plug in a foreign socket.

All in a row

Recently, too many things crumpled together, too many work to be done, too many thoughts to be blurted out but yet too lil time haih. Got time also better sleep liao, physically and mentally drained. Truth be told, yes, I'm in stress and tired liao. More than 1-kay to be collected, that's a treasurer's task in hand. She's scattered assignments to be compiled into one, that's a dai-gar-jie's punya responsibility. Haha, actually not dai gar jie la, just responsible in gathering everything which has been delayed to ages by snail me. Whole sem de notes to be digested, that's a student and daughter's promise. These, are what entail me next week.

This week, no difference in work load. Heart-squeezing role play presentation for communication skills is completed, kelam-kabut dosage form practical already carried out, and dosage theory test already undergone. And also, we got our chemistry quiz 1's marks le. Although mine is nothing to be proud of but I'm relieved enough to cross the line. But once again, relieve is far from satisfy. I know, more effort need to be poured in. Once again, I need to strengthen my will, like what leong once quoted, 'ur strength is equals to that of ur will'. Easy to speak verbally, doing it is another thing o.O

Speaking of dosage form, another disappointment..It's one of our core subjects this sem where we are being taught the proper hands-on techniques to compound medicines in lab. Our prescription for this midterm test was to prepare a cream and a suspension. Real ganjiong. Everything is done at high speed,
------- fast scanning through the prescription given
------- flip through BPC kasarly (our dictionary-like reference for all medicinal and non-medicinal ingredients) whereby u'll hear loud paper flipping sound and start pondering whether ur once precious BPC will be torn by ur roughness
------- lift head a while and eyes swiftly scan through the surrounding cos tiba-tiba attention driven away by a clean and sharp 'plink-plank' sound cos someone (dunno who cos no time to find out le) break his/her glassware on floor
------- continue forcing urself to think.think.think although whole mind gone haywire and u feel like just switching on the main power supply to burn everything in mind into flames
------- then, hurringly scribble all the jumbled-up procedures that pop in mind, at the same time doubting whether u wrote the correct ones
------- now, start all the messy grabbing of bottles, scooping of powders and oily paste from the narrow mouthed bottles, weighing, mixing, stirring, cooking, initiating a flame at the bunsen burner by shooting its mouth with a gun (i dunno what's that called, fire starter?)

Just at this moment of urgency, clumsy me spilled water into my boiling oily mixture which is needed for my cream preparation. But realising that i'm running short of time, dun care dy, continue to mix the powder, add more water and kacau it over the water bath. Then to realise weird oily droplets floating on my cream solution. Sedih betul. Then peep at coursemate's cream who sits directly opposite to me, his is a uniformly mixed solution wanting to turn cream liao. With the postgraduate keeping a watchful and weird looking eyes on my cream, there i go...pouring my cream into the sink as if it were an unwanted bowl of leftover soup.

What to do, start all over again, then to realise the same product eventhough i switch my sequence of mixing all ingredients. And the consequence? I tak jadi to prepare my 2nd product of suspension T_T Dahlah slow now pulak do wrongly. But luckily i still get to form my cream at the end. Yuan lai as long as u wait a bit longer, stir.stir.stir non-stop, an evenly mixed cream will be form de. Really aiyo ar, what I lack is patience! Urgggghh!

I shall boikot all creamy products for a week! hahaha, say ny la, I still love ice-cream <3 (as long as tian mai tarik us go eat mcD's sundae too often like first sem =P)

p/s: Dosage form is just like Harry Potter's potion class. It's fun de and satisfying too when u berjaya to produce the drug formulations that u're asked to.

Tiny promise made in heart: I must finish producing both prescriptions for dosage form in finals! Herggg! hahaha, we shall see.

Missed

Missed my to-do work load, of comprehensive review, dosage report, and ANS lab report.

Missed my routine night wash, of bathing, brushing my teeth, washing my face, and getting my retainer on.

Missed my slow tuned alarm, of waking up and continuing all pre-planned tasks.

Once more.

I missed out time.

Only to regret losing it after it is far gone.

Then agree upon the fact that time is not slow droplets of water from a losely screwed tap.

But rather a spill of bucketful pressure that floods the floor all in one go.

There is no turning back.

Now.

Picking up urgent load with the earliest due date.

Prioritize and push others aside temporarily.

Once again, being delayed.

Dissapointment felt but still have to go on.

Heightens spirit and YES,

Believe is what left.

Ush! I CAN DO IT.

Like nike, ‘just do it!’

Small gifts received, huge smile seeing teeth: Ling, ur choco cupcake made my day, warmth at heart is all that i need. <3